Talking to myself
Bismillah.
Just one of those times where I feel the need to talk but I don’t feel like talking to anyone.
I’m kind of stuck in my head for a bit and I’m even more stuck in bad habits.
Honestly, I don’t understand why I refuse to acknowledge I’m unwell and I refuse to consume any medicine.
I’m in bed but I could feel my head flying. I know it’s not normal and I half thought I was dying.
But my stubbornness knows no bounds.
I just want to tell myself to overcome today.
Be home quickly so I can get a good rest after work.
I am about 10 hours away from starting my work shift. What am I doing right now to myself? I should be sleeping, especially since I am not well.
I also hope that I can be more disciplined. I am mentally strong. I can do this. I have to start somewhere but I have to start now.
May Allah ease.
And Allah is Al-Jabbar, The Powerful, The Restorer. – MM
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