I Plan: Visual Novel Project – Opening Sequence ideas (A Singer’s Dream)

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

[White puffy clouds sail steadily across the blue sky, almost diagonally.

(Cue music: You Are What I Want by Nurul Huda)

(Protagonist’s Narration: “You are what I want.” That, is my principle and way of life. I always know what I want and I am always determined to get what I want.)

As the camera pans down from the sky to the landscape view of a town from afar, the protagonist’s narration continues.
(Protagonist’s Narration: Like anyone else, I have a dream. My dream is important to me.)]

That is all the idea I have for now for the opening sequence. There is quite a bit of thought that I have put into it. I started with something bright and light, right? (Sorry I couldn’t resist the rhyming.) So I thought A’s composition would fit in perfectly. He has shared with me a piece that evokes in me a sense of having found a rainbow. It is light-hearted and gentle and heart-warming. However, I was very clueless about my protagonist’s personality and profile besides being a female. What should she be like? Cutesy? Dark? Both seemed too generic. Nora suggested something normal. Okay normal is fine but not boring, right? What would make the character normal yet special? I then thought, aha! Let’s begin the narration with a quote and let’s see where that takes us. Then I saw my current mobile wallpaper, which is the image containing the quote, “You are what I want”. I thought it clicked. The title is after all ‘A Singer’s Dream’ and a dream implies a sense of grit and determination that ensues a clear direction. As I began to shape the protagonist’s personality, voice, and speech, I recalled that the main inner struggle that she will face is desire versus sacrifice. Hence, the last line of the monologue purposefully reinforced the protagonist’s desire to achieve her dream. Coincidentally, the visuals complement the monologue; the view of the town and the phrase ‘like anyone else’. There is that theme of mass versus individual that echoes sacrifice versus desire laid out perfectly there.

Another theme of the VN is the juxtaposition of light and heaviness — the bright sky with the heavy steely quote — and of darkness and light-heartedness — which revolves around the protagonist’s happiness of working towards her dream at night.

So yep. That is enough brain-cracking for today but progress nonetheless!

And He is Knower of all things. – MM

I Recall: 19 July 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

And He is Knower of all things. – MM

I Ramble: 18 July 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

It’s amazing how the loudest and the longest alarms can’t get me up but the softest and shortest WhatsApp notification can.

A woke me up just now at 4.45am. He asked me last night if I was fasting today. I said yes so I guess he decided to wake me up. I didn’t tell him though that I have been absolutely shocking at waking up early lately. Muahahaha! In fact I was late for work 3 out of 6 times last week. My worst record this year. 😦

So sweet of him. He was even worried that he might have woken me up too early. He woke up at 4.30am. He wants to fast today too. He has been getting sweeter lately as much as he has been becoming more open to me. It is always nice to have someone who takes you seriously yet induce it with light-heartedness at the same time.

I’d say that would be his gift. He probably doesn’t know it himself though.

Ah, well, men.

He loves Samurai X. I will need to check out that anime one of these days.

You know, at the rate A is treating me, I am going to start forming high expectations of other men who are to be my potential suitors. I mean, look at the way he is spoiling me right now and he is only a good friend. Muahahahaha!

Have a great day, everyone! I know mine had a great start!

And Allah is Knower of all things. From A and I, all thanks and praises are to Him. – MM

I Relate: 18 July 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Maybe, one day, I can stop lying to myself.. when you found the one for you that is… since it is not me you want. In any case, I shall remain stoic. For the sake of our friendship.

But more so, for my sake.

And Allah is Knower of all things. – MM

I Ramble: 15 July 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

It has been a while since I last blogged, it seems. Well, things haven’t been going on well in my head lately and I can feel it affecting me physically.

After today, I can breathe a bit over the weekends. No plans whatsoever. My weekends have been packed for the past months and this weeked will definitely be a nice break to have.

I have so many things to do but what is new? I have so many things I need to do. I have so many things I want to do as well.

I am trying not to read into things too much nowadays. Gives me a splitting headache and it is definitely a waste of mental capacity and resources to do so. I shall take it as it comes but I shall just remain as aware as I can be.

Work has been daunting. Sighs.

I wish I can just not come to work but such is life. Hang on to dear life for the next 8 hours.

And He is Knower of all things. – MM

I Plan: Visual Novel Project – Title Screen (A Singer’s Dream)

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Not much update, really. Basically, I procrastinated important work due Wednesday by using Paint for my title screen idea.

a singer's dream cover

Also, Windows 10 sucks monkey balls because I couldn’t install my Write Your Own Novel program.

Okay fine. I shall just use Microsoft Word then.

I shall revert back to Windows 7 one of these days. Grrrr….

And Allah is Knower of all things. – MM

I Quote: Kingsman: The Secret Service

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Manners maketh Man.

There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow men. True nobility is being superior to your former self.

And Allah is Knower of all things. – MM

I Ramble: 9 July 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

For the first time ever in my life, I was early by an hour.

Hahahaha! All thanks to Nora la!!! Horrible. Forced me to leave my house so early. Ish.

Hmm… I wanted to blog about a lot of things… but I have forgotten! Oh no.


A sounded really tired on WhatsApp yesterday. What touched me was that he made an effort to reply to my messages regardless. In the end, we pretty much called it a night. All I did was to send him off nicely and he was touched by my concern.

Ah good la. Touch each other’s hearts. Hahaha!

But nope, that wasn’t what I wanted to blog about but that was the only thing I had in mind. Hmmm…

Maybe it has something to do about our friendship that I wanted to share.

Oh yeah!

I told him that our friendship lasted longer than my relationship. Hahaha!

My relationship barely lasted a month. Hahaha! He was shocked to know that. Our friendship on the other hand, has been going on for about two months now. He said it felt more like we have known each other for 20 years!

Pretty true. I came to know a lot about him in these two months as though I have known at least 20 years of his life’s events and milestones. I think he is somewhat still waiting for me to open up to him. I think he does look forward to my texts and he wants to know more about me but given the type of person I am and what I went through, I just learnt to clam up a lot about myself, particularly my feelings and thoughts, well except when I am blogging or writing in my diary. He mentioned to me before that he has been waiting outside my door under the rain or shine after knocking on it many times. Well, he put it very poetically like that in Malay. Haha! I find that interesting though because to be honest, I am not exactly sure just how much should I talk to him. As a friend, I really do not want to be a bother to him because after all, I am just a friend, right? At the same time, he has never explicitly told me that he simply regard me as just a younger sister. So hence my conundrum. Plus he told me before that he is the type of person who gets restless when someone persistently bugs him. So how? Hahaha!

Well, there was quite a heavy matter perturbing my thoughts. At first thought, I wanted to tell A about it but I felt I would just bother him. However, it bugged me too much that I ended up telling him about it.

His reaction? He thanked me for sharing it with him.

So… I supposed what he wants is to feel that I can go to him whenever and for whatever, because that would really reflect the comfort levels of our friendship. He even told me directly that I should nevet feel alone or lonely because he is there for me.

How sweet is that? What a great friend. I am truly thankful to Him and to him for this friendship.

You know, I usually stalk people but for A, I really didn’t bother to. Okay, maybe more like I never really felt the need to because he himself shared so many things with me and he is so open about himself with me.

He, in turn, doesn’t stalk my blog and SNS-es either.

Not that I would mind though. He is one of my greatest supporters anyway! ^_^v

But yeah, this guy has successfully repaired my confidence that other guys have damaged.

All within two months.

Thank you so much, my minion aeronautical captain. You also successfully turned a ramble post into a gratitude post.

Only A.

And Allah is Knower of all things. – MM

I Recall: 7 July 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Hi! So the previous post was not as cheerful as my Eid celebration yesterday. I am feeling great actually unlike what the previous post suggests. Muahahaha!

This year’s Eid was different as we broke our annual tradition of visiting as a large group on a chartered bus.

But I must say I thoroughly enjoyed myself! I got to reconnect with my paternal grandmother.

I also got to reconnect with a very special cousin, Riyandi!

I told him about my ex, my band, and A. It was fun being all nostalgic with my cousin about the good old days when we jammed together. To be honest, I never thought I would jam again and then my ex happened which consequentially led me to finding a band to sing for. Hahahaha! Let the good times roll.

I also invited him to collaborate with myself and A. Imagine this trio set-up: Ruu Dee, Huu Dee, and Ryan Dee.

Glorious, I tell you!

So I hope everyone is feeling happy too. I actually have a few more things to share including updates on my VN project, other project plans, and a new handphone.


Nothing glam la, just had to upgrade and I went for the cheap one with decent specs that is all.

Anyway, have a family photo and a solo photo… because I know you all love me. 🙂

And He is Knower of all things. – MM