I Ramble: 28 October 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

*GASPS*

A came to my workplace last Wednesday to help me out with our school play. Introduced him to Nora, Eleena, Lyra, and Qian. So yay! My girls know him in person now! HEHE

Well, they find him alright. Nora’s approval is of course important to me and she has deemed him as a normal guy, which is already a positive sign. To be honest, interactions were minimal because we were all occupied with work.

He just couldn’t get over the kids HAHAHAHA! Well, he loves children so he left our place feeling really really happy. Even as he was nursing his migraine at home, he recounted to me his experience at my workplace.

You know, I have been making this secret hope in my heart that my suitor would come see me at work or pick me up from work. I guess I received an idea on how that would be/feel like. Well, it feels nice. šŸ™‚

Allah knows best. – MM

I Ramble: 23 October 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

I totally forgot today is Eleena’s birthday. Toinggg.

I hope she forgives me! T_T

Anyway, things are getting a little interesting…but having learnt from experience, I am not going to bank on anything. Make no assumptions and place no hopes.

I’m just happily doing things with A right now by:

  • working on the school’s play together;
  • playing Clash of Clans together; and
  • playing The Godfather: Five Families together.

We will definitely get back to Rubber Bandits’ musical collaboration soon insya-Allah. The both of us have a lot on our plate. I really like the fact that we are busy with our own affairs yet at the same time we are also busy together.

Massive headaches, heart is heavy, feet are heavier, but the smile remains.

Eiffel, I’m in love… with my life right now. Alhamdulillah.

And Allah is Knower of all things. – MM

I Ramble: 17 October 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

I can be a very mean girl, I realised.

Now I find myself having to make a more conscious effort inĀ regulating myself.

I get affected a bit more easily nowadays. Co-leading a production is not easy, especially when it comes right after a huge award application and reception. Plus, I need to work on assessing my children’s proficiency in the Malay language already. On top of those, I have my regular teaching duties. :/ Sometimes I feelĀ like taking off my captain’s boots and letting someone else wear them because they are getting a little too big for me.

Still, I will have to trudge on.

I know I am not alone but I have to isolate myself a little bit so I can find my equilibrium everytime something happens that affect me quite a bit.

Well, the bills are in. Pay day is coming up in three days. My dad lost his job recently so now I will have to pay HDB $1155.20 per month. That means I can no longer pay for my study loan, which I have been paying $1070 per month this year so that pushes back my aim of finishing the loan this year. I will have to pay $170 per month instead for the loan.

Given what’s left of my money, I may have no choice but to cook my own lunch already. :/

In fact, I’m fasting today…because I has no money for food and I already owe three people money for food. T_T

Maybe I need to think about making money on the sideline?

Haisss… I have all that money I worked hard for in my CPF but I can’t use it in my time of need because of shenanigans… yes, dumb laws and policies that look more like shenanigans. I sound like I earn a lot, close to 3K per month but in the end I could only bank out 2.1K… where got enough for the bills and expenses…

.____.

Even if I find myself crawling at snail speed, I will have to go on.Ā Passion is not the problem here. I am never lacking it. The problem is I’m too full of it that I end up neglecting other things and only realising it too late .

Sometimes I wish I can find the stop lever in this bullet train bound for an impending crash.

It’s okay. If we’re going to crash, at least make it a beautiful explosion.

He Knows best. – MM

I Ramble: 9 October 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

You know, sometimes it is just damn funny that you spent a few years with someone and he never saw you for the qualities he yearns to see in his partner…such as being badass.

Then when you spent a few months with someone else, he tells you what he thinks of you…that you are badass.

I find it quite hard to reconcile a lot of qualities A told me he sees in me due to having been put down a lot and well, not being seen for the girl that I am.

Well, I find A to be super badass and so maybe genuinely badass people get the badass partners they deserve.

Okay, I am not his romantic partner, mind you. I am, in his words, his partner in crime.

Now it is time for this badass girl to have fun.

And Allah is Knower of all things. – MM

I Ramble: 3 October 2016; Headspace and heartspace

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

I should probably tell A to make that our album title — Headspace and Heartspace — has such a nice ring to it, doesn’t it?

Hey, guys! I’m just going to ramble a bit here. Basically, this is me trying to get back into things again after being away for what feels like an eternity.

Well, what happened?

South Korea happened. Innovation Award happened.

Those two were the hugest events of my life this year. Ever. I must say, unbeknownst to me, those two events concluded the Islamic year of 1437 Hijrah. Welcome new year of 1438 H!

As I’m typing this, I’m YouTubing while cleaning my room. Hahaha!

I thought I’d be ready to blog about South Korea and the Innovation Award… but I guess I am just too lazy to do so! Muahahaha!

So I’m gonna get back to my cleaning.

Also, A suprised me by inviting me to play Clash of Clans and he even offered to start the game from scratch with me so that he can guide me properly.

Gosh, he is always telling me that I am sweet but he is too! Grr!

He Knows best. – MM