I Record: Made of Stone by Evanescence (Smule Cover)

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

Just wanted to know where my vocals are at now so I didn’t use any filters and I’m having a cold.

My own review is that I’m still not projecting my voice very well. However, I find that I’ve grown more comfortable with low and high notes. Still, the cold is definitely getting in the way of sustaining my notes.

https://www.smule.com/recording/evanescence-made-of-stone/644305050_978665306/

And Allah is Al-Qabid, the Constrictor. – MM

I Ramble: 28 January 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

I’m very late to the party but late is always better than never.

I’m talking about my current earworm, Made of Stone by Evanescence. At first glance of the lyrics, it made me think of Amy Lee and Ben Moody and the whole hullabaloo about their relationship or lackthereof. The first two lines — Speak your mind/Like I care — already made me think of Ben Moody’s band called We Are The Fallen, which really is a lot like trying to establish Evanescence but in Ben Moody’s preferences rather than Amy Lee’s. You guys can read up more about the whole thing on Google. Quite juicy. So it’s like there’s a back and forth between Amy Lee and Ben Moody in that sense. That’s just my interpretation based on those two lines.

But then I realise it could also mean her ex-boyfriend, that frontman from Seether.

However, after listening to Made of Stone for a few times, I realise it actually resonates a lot with me and it is not restricted to romantic relationships but also work relationships and so on. So yeah, it helped me heal that pain from my soured work relationship. I really have turned deaf, dumb, and blind to my workplace antics right now because I’m already mentally prepared to move on from it.

And what’s more haunting will be the words you can see on the thumbnail of the video below.

I will still remember when you’ve long forgotten me.

I will definitely remember my time at my workplace but for sure, I will just be another dissipated name and face to them. I’ll just be a long gone past despite my services and accolades there. Nobody will care and nobody will remember. That is by all means alright with me. I don’t need to be remembered like that. I don’t need gratitude. I think I have set aside whatever workplace ego I had.

I’m just happier like that. 🙂

And Allah is Al-‘Alim, the Knower of All. – MM

I Ramble: 24 January 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

Well, after having some time off from work has allowed me to not only think of things but also plan things. I am embarking on a secret project…so secretive that even le boyfriend has no idea what it is about but okay, I will give just a little idea to prep you. Basically, there will be a little change going on here in terms of the content. I will be a whole lot more wary of what I post here and how I post the content. There will be more commitment to this place. Whether the project will be successful or not, God knows but what I know is that I will enjoy doing the project. Is there a timeframe to the project? Tentatively no. It will just be ongoing until it is no longer feasible for me to do so. You may notice a countdown on the left navigation bar that states the days left to kickstarting my project. Don’t worry, it won’t be too much of a change. Just a humble beginning to a humble commitment. I’m not going into it with any expectations to be honest but to just enjoy whatever I can do.

Talking about countdowns, well, I have inserted a countdown to my big day! Wheeeee! As we all can see, I only have about 3 months to go. Scary Mary. There is a lot we have to do and think about. So that’s a major commitment for me.

I think the theme for the year 2017 for me personally is commitment.

Never fear! Baeda is here!

And Allah is Al-Ghaffar, the Forgiving. – MM

 

I Ramble: 23 January 2017 part 3

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

Oh, I just wanted to make sure that you all understand that I’m not like super emo or depressed or anything. Yes, I had been quite emotional in the previous post but I’m actually feeling okay now. And it wasn’t like the whole day was a bad day, really.

In fact, I really want to bring this up:

Today, I woke up and saw myself in the mirror…

And I just have to agree with le boyfriend that I am beautiful, pretty, and gorgeous.

Don’t get me wrong. I still have my acne scars, I still have fats in the wrong places, and I still feel sickly.

BUT.

For some reason…damn, I look hot. There was a certain glow in my skin. I ferl good, I feel light, I feel happy.

That’s what love does to you, huh? They say girls in love become prettier, which is why guys who used to like them may just question why they hadn’t seen that in the girls before.

Well, I will never forget the moment when le boyfriend held my chin, looked into my eyes and wondered aloud to me just how could no guy not see the beauty in me nor be attracted to me nor fall for me.

Well, I simply replied to him that maybe I was reserved for him.

But now, yeah, I find myself wondering the same thing. Hmmm…

Oh, well, c’est la vie. I’m very happy though that he finds me beautiful inside out.

And now, I have indeed come to believe him.

Girls, that’s what good boyfriends do for you. They remind you and reassure you and they NEVER tire of doing so. They build up your self-esteem and never will want it to be destroyed. Hence, it is easy to love them.

Because they give you all the right reasons to.

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah, for giving me the best man who loves me for my perfections and imperfections.

I love you so much, Bee! ❤


And Allah is Al-Musawwir, the Shaper of Beauty. – MM