I Ramble: 29 December 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Today, I took MC. I hated the feeling so much; of wanting to throw up yet nothing is coming out and it just feels like my body is depleted of all energy. Doesn’t help that the diarrhea kicked in. Even my husband got it but it seems like I got the worse end of the poisonous gas building inside me that got me horribly nauseous. I don’t feel nauseous now after one nausea pill and three solid hours of sleep. But I still feel achy all over and my stomach cramps are still pretty bad. But I’ll just drag myself to work tomorrow. It just sucks la being sick. No one enjoys being sick.

In a bid to feel less sucky about everything in life, I decided to buy my own pack of Sakura Pigma Micron pens. I bought a set previously for my husband when he was warded at the hospital so that he could busy himself with drawing. It’s probably a foolish move of me to buy a similar pack. His is the Manga pack so he has the 005, 01, 05, 08, Black Brush Pen, and White Gel Pen. When I compared mine to his, I pretty much have most of those except the White Gel Pen. Instead, I have the 03 pen. I’m no pro-doodler so I probably won’t be able to discern the differences among the pens. However, I realised that if I were to use the pens a lot, it probably is a good investment to have more. Additionally, I bought the Sakura Pigma Brush Pens. I was conflicted between the Sakura Koi Brush Pens and the Pigma ones but I eventually decided on the Pigma ones since I wasn’t going to do any watercolour styles in my bullet journal. But I might just go back to get it while it is still on sale. Now I regret not getting the pack. HAHAHAHA! Nah, I’ll give it a miss until I’m more in tuned with brush lettering. It’s more of Eleena’s forte than mine.

I have also ordered two A5 Dotted Leatherette Notebooks from Winzige.sg via Shopee, which will be shipped on 3 January 2019. Yeah, I felt foolish about this decision too, especially in getting two instead of one since I have no idea if the papers are thick enough for my Pigma inks. Plus, we all know how lousy my level of commitment is. Well, I bought two because I didn’t want to go through the hassle of having to purchase it again should I run out of pages. Additionally, the notebook is on sale until end of the month. It costs just $8.90 each, which you will agree, is relatively inexpensive compared to the atas notebooks carried by the brick and mortar stores. Wow, I just combined a commomly used Singlish term and an English term rarely used by Singaporeans in one sentence. HAHAHAHA!

I hope I can recover quickly and feel amazing again.

Stay amazing, friends.

And Allah is Al-Fattah, The Supreme Solver. – MM

I Challenge: Boho Berry Challenge – December: Year-End Review (28 December 2018)

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Wowsies. I actually did a challenge and completed it! Yay! It is the Boho Berry December Challenge!

Just click on the picture to know what it is all about. I’ve linked it to Boho Berry’s site regarding the challenge itself. I’m psyched to share my answers to the challenge right here.

Firstly, of course, I would like to thank my husband, Beedin, for supplying me with the notebook in which I did the journalling challenge.

It is just a small pocket notebook with blank pages in them, which proved useful in letting me doodle here and there. Thanks, Bee!

Secondly, I copied the list of topics in the challenge so I didn’t have to refer to my phone each time.

Yeah, I had a little fun handlettering the title but as you can see, I clearly lack spatial awareness. Just crammed the entire title up there on the page.

Next, I proceeded to do sort of a cover for the challenge. Was inspired by Amanda Rachel Lee’s December 2018 Bullet Journal set-up. Have a look at the following video.

Now have a look at my doodle. Bwahahahaha! So far away from her creation.

Then I went ahead with contributing to all of the topics.

1. Introductions

2. 2018 in Three Words

3. Favourite Memory

4. Biggest Accomplishment

5. Biggest Challenge

6. This Year, I…

7. Time Well Spent

8. Successes

9. Could Have Gone Better

10. Money Well Spent

11. Progress Towards Goals

Not going to share a sharp image of the above as I feel those goals are quite personal. But you can see them anyway if you put in the effort. HAHAHAHAHA!

12. New Skills Learnt

13. Breakthrough Moment

14. Smart Decisions

15. Good Habits Formed

16. Bad Habits Broken

17. Unfinished Business

18. Theme/Word for 2019

19. Start Doing

20. Keep Doing

21. Stop Doing

22. Out of My Comfort Zone

At this point of sharing, I believe I became less retrospective and more prospective instead. I think this topic should cover an event in 2018 where I got myself out of my comfort zone. Instead, I recorded what I would like to do in 2019 that would take me out of my comfort zone. But for the record, yeah, going on The Mummy ride for the second time sure was a step out of my comfort zone. All done for love’s sake! Hahahaha!

23. Setting Intentions

24. Something New

25. Self-care

I’ll just continue the sentence here: to…remain soft and smooth all year round.

26. Contribution, 27. Education & 28. Career

Once again, these turned out to be less retrospective than they were supposed to, I feel.

29. 2019 Will Feel Successful If…

30. Top Three 2019 Goals

31. Lessons Learned

There we go! Finally Huda has successfully completed a challenge! Yippy!

I must say that doing this exercise really helped me to have better ideas on how I’d like to plan out my 2019 Bullet Journal. I was really forced to sit and think through some of the topics. You can try it and you will also find that it can be tedious in certain aspects, especially when you are forced to think quite hard on life questions that you would sometimes prefer to leave unanswered. Muahahaha!

I hope everyone reading this would feel drawn to journalling and picking up similar challenges and more importantly, complete them. It would really organise your thoughts better and help you see your life from a different angle and reassess it.

Fun fact: It took me 40 minutes or so to do up this post, mostly in snapping the photos of the entries and positioning them under each heading. I wanted to start on my 2019 Bullet Journal but I’m starting to feel burnt out from just doing this post.

Yes, I have been feeling burnt out from doing little tasks recently. I think my depression is worsening but the reality is, I can never get it checked.

Because no one would believe me? Not sure. But I think it has been so overly glamourised that I much rather not deal with it.

Simple things have become so difficult to do. I take a longer time to do things that can be done in a minute or even a heartbeat.

And I feel so downright tired all the time.

Or maybe it’s just my diarrhea.


And Allah is Ar-Razzaq, the Total Provider. – MM

I Ramble: 27 December 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.


Where do I even begin.

About ushering in 2019? Summarise 2018 and wrap up the year? About games and gaming? About being ill? About my husband? About life? About journalling? Ai yai yai yai yai. So many things yet so little energy for anything.

Maybe we’ll start with the following photo.

This is me taking a shot of my television, showing a gameplay of The Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End on PS3 by my husband.

Yup, it’s close to eleven PM when we were playing a bit of POTC. I firstly want to express that I enjoy being married to someone who not only shares my hobbies but also engage in them. Best part is that neither of us were overly particular about how each other play. I must admit that I wanted him to save his gameplay on a separate file but then my better judgment got me to realise that hey, I can always replay the level if I ever feel like immersing myself fully in the game or being a completionist through collecting every single item and unlocking every chest and so on. There isn’t any pressing need for me to not share the gameplay anyway. But yes, if I was working on unlocking achievement seriously, I wouldn’t let him have the controller. Hahahaha!

The game was a fortuituos buy. Remember, I wanted to buy the first installment of Uncharted? Well, my husband and I stumbled upon a copy at Games Resort @ Compass One. It costs $30. My husband was telling me to just get it as PS3 games have noticeably dwindled in the shops. But when you’re the sole breadwinner of the family, you will obviously get sensitive about the price. $30, albeit half the price of what PS3 games usually cost, is still a pinch to me. So I decided not to get it from Compass One. Then, just yesterday, I jio-ed mum to go to Tampines Mall to look for a bullet journal. Unfortunately, I couldn’t find the journal I wanted to get but then I remembered there were two game shops at one of the levels. The first shop that I went to didn’t carry Uncharted so I decided to try the adjacent shop, GameXtreme. I found a copy and it costs $25. So I thought I might as well get it because I don’t know when my next trip to Tampines will be and that I probably couldn’t get a better deal anyway. Lo and behold! Just as I wanted to make payment, the dude noticed a sticker on the case and said, “This one three for $10. Go and get two more with a sticker.”

Gnarly! What a deal! So I grabbed POTC and Assasin’s Creed: Brotherhood because nothing else interest me. For POTC, I played it on Wii before and I really enjoyed it so I thought I’d play it again on PS3 instead. Then I simply chose AC because my husband likes the franchise. Wow. It’s so different when you’re a single gamer and when you’re a married gamer, huh? Hahahaha!

So yup! Lucky me bought Uncharted for just 1/3 of $10 instead of $30. That’s like…errr…my fractions is not good. 1/3 of 1/3? Cos you know, it is like three times less of three times less? Oh, bollocks, nevermind me. Point is, it pays to be frugal. And nice. Cos nasty customers won’t get good recommendations. Muahahahaha!

So that’s about yesterday and games and gaming. It’s been a while since I’ve touched my console so I feel the vertigo pretty damn badly this time. My head just fucking hurts all the time now. Sheesh.

Oh, yeah, I mentioned about wanting to get a bullet journal. I know, I can just use any old notebook but I really wanted to emulate the creator of the bullet journal and I think that the dots would be pretty helpful in making markings and estimating the amount of space I need for certain sections of the bullet journal.

So there goes the dream. I know I can just get it online but like I said, I have to be frugal as I am the only person who is holding the money.

But yeah back to gaming, I haven’t started on Uncharted yet ironically enough. Hahahaha! That shows just how much I enjoyed playing POTC on Wii. To be honest, I can’t recall going through the same sort of experience on the PS like I did on the Wii! Let me just check for a moment if my instincts are true. Both versions really feel a whole lot different to me! Or is it I’m demented? Let me just check for a sec.

Oh yes, they are indeed different! Oh, my God! I recall smashing crates a lot more in POTC Wii and spending more time in the sea prison in the beginning chapter. POTC PS3 is like a super condensed version of the movie and I didn’t spend as much time in the beginning chapter.

Oh, wow, wow, wow! Nonetheless, this PS3 version that is new to me, is still enjoyable. It does have that Uncharted feel in terms of having to figure your way out and scaling walls and shimmey-ing ledges. So I figured that POTC is a great warm-up game to gear me up for POTC.

I found out about the versions being different from GameSpot. Man, it has been a while since I’ve been there and blog there. Now, I miss blogging there about games and all that jazz. Really takes me back given just how much I have rambled on about games in this post! Felt like the good old times!

For a proper game post, I should write about the differences I experienced in both versions and whether I enjoy one more than the other. Apparently the Wii version is the same as the PSP and PS2 versions but the PS3 and XBox360 versions are different, with the XBox360’s varying slightly from the PS3’s.

Wow, amazing! We all discovered something new!

Anyway, I feel like I rambled on long enough. Will definitely want to complete the games I started playing on both the PC and on the PS3. Also, will definitely want to get back to bullet journalling and be more life-organised.

I really like to make up my own words sometimes. Just how do you guys live with me? Hahahaha!

And Allah is Al-Wahhab, the Supreme Bestower. – MM

I Ramble: 22 December 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Hey, everyone! Hope you guys are doing okay because I’m not exactly feeling at the pink of my health. I will try to drink more plain water, okay?

Nothing much. Just the same old same old.

And I just want to reiterate that my husband is extremely obsessed with playing the keyboard right now. He even recorded a mash-up of ‘Minuet in G’, ‘Minuet in D Minor’ and ‘Davy Jones’. And it sounds incredible!

Myself? I’m still learning how to play ‘Davy Jones’. I’m barely a page in. But it’s okay! I’ve begun to get used to the fingering. Hehehehe. ‘Fingering’. Hehehehe. Shhhh.

Hmm, it felt like I had more to blog about initially but then I just kinda lost the direction of this post. Oh, well! Here’s to surviving three more days of work!

the last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

This is a very hard song to sing. But I want to sing it anyway. Will learn.

And Allah is Qahhaar, the All-Prevailing One. – MM

I Ramble: 15 December 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

I’ve been quite ill mostly because work has been hard. Wifely duties have been hard too. I really don’t know where I found the strength. Maybe from the natural sense of responsibility.

Anyway, despite being away from work a bit recently, my house is still in a mess. It’s daunting having to do physical work when your body is screaming, “Rest me!”

Anyway, WordPress is getting niftier so I thought now’s a good time to get back to blogging. But of course, I anticipate that life will happen and I’ll end up forsaking this blog again. It takes a lot of commitment to maintain this blog, I’ll admit. Phew!

I read the first chapter of my story, Mortal, and I’m starting to have the itch to continue writing it. Call me narcissistic but that first chapter just sucks me right in. Heh heh heh.

To be honest, I was only writing this post because I had trouble running CSI: Hard Evidence on my PC via Steam. I deeply regret not buying the other CSI and Law & Order games whilst they were available on Steam. I don’t know why Steam no longer sell them. Oh well. Money saved, I guess.

I’ll be accompanying my husband to the hospital next week to review the progress of his ankle. His hospital bill came in yesterday and we were so relieved that we didn’t have to pay anything. The actual bill was close to SGD 20k. How expensive was that?!

I truly just want to be a housewife but maybe I’m not permitted to be one just yet. Seems like there is some sort of destiny I must fulfill at Uniqlo Orchard Central. Hais. I don’t even know what that destiny is but I feel like I wanna die working there already. Hahahaha!

Yes, I laugh but that is truly my sentiment. I don’t know — I guess I learnt to hide my pain a little bit. Or just laugh it away a bit. Better something than nothing.

 You know what? I miss myself a bit. I miss the old Huda who doesn’t give a damn about work and the house. This Huda is forced to be a grown-up. But I wanna be a kid again! Help!

Hopefully, I will feel loads better by tomorrow morning so I can work in peace. The Lord is Great. The Lord is Good.

Oh, oh! I started playing Bioshock from the beginning because I have completely forgotten how to play it despite having a previously saved game. I also have not finished Uncharted 2 and am thinking of getting Uncharted 1 just to rehash. But if my husband is not interested in the series, I’ll just reply Uncharted 2 from the beginning again I suppose.

I wanna do a let’s play but audio is always a bitch for me to record. HAHAHA! We’ll see how. With le husband’s superior audio skills, he can probably whip me up a nice Let’s Play set-up. MUAHAHAHA. Or not. Cos, you know, I’m capable enough of working my way around things. TEEHEE.

Speaking of audio and le husband, we were stuck at Toa Payoh library last Tuesday as it was raining heavily. While seeking shelter in the comfort of the library, I stumbled across the Dummy’s Guide to Piano and le husband felt the itch to play it. So I dug out the keyboard from the storeroom (thankfully I was fit enough to do so since his ankle was still in a bad shape and see, this is why it pays not to be too reliant on your husband). He set up my Casio keyboard and voila, he is totally addicted to playing it right now. In fact, he is totally obsessed over it!

Well, what to do, when your husband is a natural musician? Am I boasting? Well, I do take a certain pride in it but in case I sound arrogant, it was never my intention to be so and I do apologise.

I just feel damn proud of him. And that’s how I got back into Bioshock on my PS3. YES, I KNOW EVERYONE HAS MOVED ON TO PS4 AND SOON THERE WILL BE PS5! But it’s okay. I’m always grateful for what I have. If we were truly to reflect, yes, we’re worse off than someone but at the same time, we’re better off than someone else. It’s life and we have to deal with that.

I have. A bit. Progress. Still in progress.

Okay, I’m starting to be incoherent so I shall end this post here.

Thank you for reading!

And Allah is, Al-Ghaffaar, the Ever-Forgiving. – MM

I Ramble: 8 December 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Life has been exhausting. Mostly due to work. Crazy man, to have worked max of 14-hour shifts every other day. This month I am determined to not extend like crazy anymore. I need to be firm with myself mostly, which I did yesterday. Although I still had piles of work, I decided to leave the unfinished business for today. Work will never end and as long as you know you have been productive, why be guilt-tripped into staying as late as others? Extending hours doesn’t necessarily mean that the person is hardworking. It could and many times should be scrutinised as inefficiency.

So that’s that for work.

As for the household affairs, I’ve been making a bit of an effort…finally. Hahahaha! I finally cooked when I’m home and have recognised the natural routines of washing and cleaning up. So all is good and well.

Stay good and well!

And Allah is Ar-Rahman, the Most Gracious.