I Ramble: 12 February 2018

In the name of Allah, the most Beneficent, the most Merciful.

I never knew my colleagues held me in high esteem so I was surprised when they were shocked that I cussed out loud “FUCK” when we gooners discovered that we lost to Tottenham 1-0.

What do you do when you get upset over it?

You check out the scoreline for the new club that your ex-player went to.

Newcastle 1 – 0 Man U.

Even better, when your ex-player had a clear shot at goal but botched the opp. His weakness is just too obvious. He keeps on having to sort out his feet, especially his right foot instead of just winging it with any kind of decent kick. That lack of improvisation cost the entire team. And Lukaku got a little kaku.

But really, I think, they just didn’t have any luck in that match, having watched the highlights. It seems like away games are tougher for all the teams now. Is it a suggestion that home fans are getting stronger? That would be a good sign if it is.

Anywho, today marks my one year anniversary of being engaged to Beedin. Woot! And three more months to our wedding! OMG.

And Allah is the Kindest. – MM


I Ramble: 8 February 2018

In the name of Allah, the most Beneficent, the most Merciful.

Firstly, happy birthday to la Mama! She turned 53 today. Oh me, oh my. She was 22 when she got married. I’m marrying at 28 turning 29. That means I’m a little late in the game but hey, better late than never, right? And I met Mr. Right. *winks*

Secondly, holy moly. Aubameyang is in Arsenal. And you have his partner Mkhitaryan in Arsenal. Bloody hell, I’m pretty sure everything was organised smoothly, much like Ozil’s transfer. But typical of Wenger to play it off as coincidence. I must say, it feels like the former Arsenal strikers who left are a little salty about that. I personally feel for Giroud because out of the whole lot of them who left — Chamberlain, Sanchez, Walcott, and him — I have always felt Giroud’s dedication the most. They are all good. Sanchez prolly a rung up above them. However, the difference between them and Aubameyang is their consistency. I also think the problem was that they were having the feeling that they were not growing in Arsenal and they were pretty much stuck with the same players. The lack of trophies, not including the FA Cup and Community Shields, and having dropped to Europa League, might have made them feel like oh, the players around them aren’t good, which was why they were not performing well and Arsenal just couldn’t be the team it was supposed to be. If you take a glimpse of the squad, you would think that the players aren’t so extraordinary. They weren’t as glorified as Harry Kane, Sergio Aguero, and the likes, what more on the Cristiano Ronaldo kind of calibre. In fact, there were many unknowns and youngsters, like Iwobi, Maitland-Niles, Kolasinac, and Xhaka. Those are all simply my postulations, of course. But imagine yourself as Ronaldo coming into the Arsenal squad. You’d prolly be like “Are you kidding me, I’m supposed to work with them?!”

Yes, if you catch my drift, in my opinion the Arsenal squad is not far from a typical underdog Hollywood storyline. If you were to go beyond a glimpse and actually examine each player, you’ll actually be surprised by the individual qualities. Most of them are good enough to be part of the first team for the international games, if not the World Cup. You look at the kids like Bellerin and Iwobi — they are pretty green in their experience but the pace they offer, really aids the senior players. The defenders like Koscielny and Monreal are hungry for goals. Monreal scored in almost every game recently and I remember when he was still quite new to Arsenal. Couldn’t say/understand a word of English and was like a blundering leaf at the right back. So many costly mistakes and was part of the team that took the massive humiliation at Stamford Bridge I think, during Wenger’s 1000th game. I can’t recall. But look at that lad now. Clever play and not shy of the goal and he can even translate to English for the less confident players. Koscielny has also become more comfortable in his role as captain on the field whenever he deputises for Mertesacker.

So when it seems like Arsenal was doomed, having sold almost all their attacking forward players to rival clubs, there was indeed a much needed lift and rejuvenation in the dressing room when Aubameyang arrived and Ozil extended.

And suddenly we were watching the forgotten quality of the Arsenal in the game against Everton. Suddenly everybody wants to get on the scoresheet, almost as though they want to impress Aubameyang. When you have somebody of a great calibre in the dressing room, you naturally feel the need to step up your game and save your own face. LOL. And well, it was also not unlike a form of gratification. Like saying, “We promise you won’t regret signing for us.”

What I hope that Mertesacker and Koscielny would instill in the dressing room is the belief in themselves, in their own qualities. In the knowledge that the success of the team does not rely solely on an individual’s qualities but on the harmonisation of many. Also a wake-up call that everybody is dispensable. You may be great and you may leave but there may always be someone greater than you taking your place. What exactly is the legacy you would like to leave behind?

However, if we were to recall, Ozil was in a similar situation to Aubameyang. The media were not very friendly towards him, especially during his transfer. Aubameyang who is currently surrounded by so many controversies, may be an unwitting replica of Ozil in time to come. I think we all still remember the time when Ozil did not applaud the away fans during a huge defeat and Mertesacker shouted at him. Recently, I discovered that Ozil shouted at Sanchez for not doing so. So hopefully, Aubameyang would calm down and settle down at Arsenal and London as much as Ozil did. I think Ozil has improved and matured remarkably. Even his English is filled with banter now!

As for Sanchez, I don’t think he quite settled as much as the rest did…and I don’t find him to be confident in his English! Hahaha! But whatever, he’s on another team now and scoring. Good for him. I’ll just enjoy the amazing link play that is signature of the Arsenal way, happy that my main man has extended his contract, and even happier to watch someone who closely resembled Thierry Henry in his playing style. I seriously got goosebumps watching the Everton match live. Although offside, that Auba goal was just…there was just something Henry-like in it.

And I think everyone felt it.

Up the Gunnners!


And Allah is Always Fair. – MM

I Ramble: 29 January 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

What the fuck. I finally caught up on Arsenal news, lol, only to discover that Alexis Sanchez has transferred to Manchester United. I truly regret not buying Ozil’s shirt from the Emirates now. Sheesh.

If you think about his playing style, he’s too predictable. He wants everyone to put in the same shift as him, working hard. What he fails to probably understand that Arsenal places emphasis on intelligent football. Well basically, instead of simply working hard, Arsenal is more inclined on working smart. Why drain your energy when you can save it for the final kick of a string of quick and intelligent passes? So when you put Ozil and Alexis in a team, and we all know how Ozil’s style is, I think Alexis will naturally get frustrated by how ‘lackadaisical’ Ozil seems to be on the field. I think between Giroud and Ozil and Alexis and Ozil, the better combo is actually Giroud and Ozil. There is a connection and understanding of each other’s movement. In the Chile national team, basically their strategy is to feed Alexis the ball and he will naturally score. It’s pretty direct whereas in the Arsenal team, Alexis finds himself having to be heavily involved in getting the ball and defending it instead of simply scoring goals. Alexis isn’t the best defender either. With Giroud, he actually defends a whole lot better than Alexis. Giroud has a great physical presence. I think Giroud absorbed much more from the Arsenal way than Alexis has. He understands how to make up for his shortcomings and trained himself to be versatile in both attack and defence. For Alexis, I think he’s too reliant on what he knows as much as how he is reliant on his right leg. So I can see why Wenger wouldn’t be too sore over losing Alexis. Yes, it is a huge loss to the Arsenal team but Wenger has always placed emphasis on the beauty of the game via teamwork. Alexis would suit Man U just fine since he plays a more direct brand of football.

If I am invested enough, I’ll do a stats/analysis piece on my hunch. It’s just my opinion but heyyyy, I can always be wrong.

Here’s a scorpion kick of the beautiful man, Olivier Giroud, which won him the FIFA Puskas Best Goal of the Year award. And uncannily enough, his scorpion kick was compared to Mkhitaryan’s scorpion kick by the commentators. Hehehehe. Welcome to Arsenal, Henrikh Mkhitaryan! Okay, I include your scorpion kick too hehehe!

And Allah is As-Saboor, The Extensively Enduring One. – MM

I Ramble: 18 January 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

180118. Nice date!

Anyway, le fiance fell ill huhuhu. My poor baybee finally had to take MC from work two nights ago and after working last night, he relapsed and now he got hit by the flu as well.

Hais. I wish I was his wife already.

But it’s okay. Just less than four months to go. We’ll be together soon.

Oh! Yeah, as expected, I didn’t strike 4D. Hahahaha!

BUT! A close number came up as a starter prize instead on that day, 0095. I wanted 0000. How close, eh?

But I guess we were never meant for haram money.

Today is special to me in a different way. Today I realise just how much a man adores me. It’s something I’ve never felt like I was entitled to and it feels damn nice.

I still stand my ground; that le fiance coming into my life is the best thing that ever happened to me.

And it’s very very hard to put it into words.

And Allah is Al-Ahad, the One. – MM

I Ramble: 10 January 2017

In the name of Allah, the most Beneficent, the most Merciful.


I’m going to start off my first 2018 blog post by telling you what exactly is keeping me up at night at 12:25am now when I’m working later in the morning at 8am and have to be up by 5am.

Financial pressure. 080118 is truly a cursed date. Putragis.

But instead of dwelling on faults and what could have been done, we’ve decided to move towards what we could do next.

And for the first time in my independent life, I had to resort to taking up a personal loan. I can only hope my bank approves it quickly. Even so, it truly is not enough.

I’ll be calling up the complaining bank tomorrow at work during my break to enquire about their current stance and if a rearrangement is possible.

I know, that with the personal loan, we can definitely make the full payment by end of this month. I’ll just have to live with packed food everyday or just bread for my breaks in February.

You know, a lot of people usually go through this after marriage. For us, we have to weather this storm before marriage.

And so unfortunately, we may very well have to forego the honeymoon.

Yes, it’s totally unfair to me.

But rewards don’t just come on this earth.

I don’t mind saving my rewards for the afterlife.

Life is a beast and I am determined to be a Beastmaster. (Yes, I have been watching too much The Ultimate Beastmaster on Netflix.)

On a separate note, I have finished setting up my handmade bullet journal and I have set my 2018 goals. I will update this blog sometime next week unless I can make time for it. I have a lot of affairs to settle.

May He ease my affairs…and if truly the financial pressure is unfair to me, I will strike 4D later today and use the money to pay off whatever we have to. Yes, the financial onus is not on me and shouldn’t be on me but it has fallen on me. So what can I do except to manage it the best I could? But if I don’t strike 4D, then that means it’s simply an opportunity to cleanse my wealth and sins and make me come out of it with the realisation that I’m only strong by His will.

I pray may my heart remain strong for this. And may I strike 4D so we can put all of the past truly behind us. Amin.

Hit me, knock me out, and let me go back to sleep.

And Allah is Al-Adl, the Utterly Just. – MM