I Ramble: 3 December 2017 part 2

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

So…last night before I went to bed, I decided to try out a little bit of Bullet Journalling. If you’re not sure what that is or BuJo for short, just YouTube it. You’ll find your answers there hehe. For those of you who are already aware of it, you would already know that there are so many creative people out there with fantastic designs for BuJos. One of them caught my eye.


So I decided to try it out. Of course, super fail. Hahahaha! I only did my own adaptation of the rapid logging for today.

As you can see, I attempted the crystal layout. Sucky! Hahaha! It’s okay, practice makes perfect. So basically, a Bujo has its own symbols. The circle represents an event. The dots represent tasks. The star represents priority.

And lo! I actually achieved a lot today! The magic of BuJo!

When a task is completed, you put an axe on the dot. When it is postponed or migrated to a later day, you use the ‘>’ symbol. This way, you keep on top of your back log and you actually feel the sense of fulfilment compared to leaving incomplete tasks as they are. I am probably not using the BuJo key very well here but that is the beauty of it. It’s meant to serve you, not others, so use it according to your preference.

I decided to change the bottom two tasks into habits instead.

So basically, I will colour a crystal on the date that I managed to read Quran at Fajr and at night. I will colour a cup (or whatever it is that holds water that I drew haha) on the date that I managed to down a plain water. Since I have not achieved any, they remained colourless. We’ll see how it goes.

And so here’s Monday’s. 🙂

BuJo is quite an interesting organising tool or even hobby to pick up. Feel free to experiment with me! Don’t worry if your art sucks like mine. Let’s improve together!

The best way to do so is to practise, practise, practise!

And Allah is Al-Khafid, the One Who Humbles and Lower. – MM


I Ramble: 3 December 2017

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

I actually sent two separate emails while in the train but now I fear that emails did not go through. I forgot that the mobile connectivity for my Yahoo! mail is not stellar. I will have to monitor today. If I receive no responses today, I will have to resend them on my PC, where the internet connection is definitely more stable.

6:52am and I am so sleepy now. I’m no longer the morning person I used to be when I first started working at UNIQLO! Well, that sucks.

And Allah is Al-Khabir, the All-Aware.

I Ramble: 27 November 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

I finally got around to listening to a new track by Evanescence. Apparently, Lindsey Stirling collaborated on this so I’m wondering why she was not credited like Evanescence featuring Lindsey Stirling.

Anyway, the lyrics…to me, at least the way I relate to it, speak of someone from the past. Someone whom you’ve crossed paths and you’ve crossed before. And there is that slight regret of how things turned out the way they did.

“I don’t know your heart.”


I don’t know your heart
I don’t know where to begin
But I could feel you erasing the rivers I’d drawn in
The more I stood still
The faster you were running
You don’t know how it feels crawling under your skin
So far, so far away
Don’t you know we could be

High or Low
You never fell beneath me
And I gave up on you, but I never forgot you

I can’t be your friend
Hold your hand while you bleed

There’s nothing left to give you
Nothing more I need
Time to let it sleep
Oh, the damage was real
But nothing cut me so deep I could not heal

Don’t you know we could be
High or Low
You never fell beneath me
And I gave up on you, but I never forgot you

High or Low
You never fell beneath me
And I gave up on you
But I never forgot

I Ramble: 18 November 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.


First week: diarrhea. Second week: Flu after midnight shift. Third week: Diarrhea after midnight shift. Fourth week: Flu.

Wah kao.

Illness plus consecutive weeks of midnight shifts plus conseutive weeks of friends’ weddings plus my own wedding preparations have kept me away from my business. Wtf.

Supposed to get the website done by tomorrow….but nope. Suddenly, my childhood friend is getting married tomorrow too.


So I decided to tank both friend’s wedding and discussing my wedding plans at the same time tomorrow. Le papa and la mama are going so I decided to bring le fiancé along we four can confirm some details.

Like the monetary gift that Malays usually like to have at wedding aka the duit hantaran. Going to have some serious negotiation with la mama. I really don’t want it but since she insisted, I’mma do it my way.

*rubs hands in glee*

I really don’t see the point of framing thousands of dollars when I can use that money to book a world tour.

More worthwhile!

So it is either she settle for the mandatory amount of monetary gift aka the mahar, or I’m setting it at $111. Just because. My proposition is that we create a money tree out of the $111. So 11 one-dollar coins would look like the fruits and the green five-dollar notes and red ten-dollar notes would look like the leaves. The idea is that we continue to grow our money tree throughout our marriage by adding on $1 coins, $5 notes, and $10 notes. The money tree shouldn’t be touched unless in cases of emergency. I think that would definitely be more symbolic and meaningful. La mama insisted on duit hantaran as she claimed that it is to kickstart our marriage life. Well, isn’t the money tree a kickstart and an actual sustainable idea?

We all win!

So I hope that plan works tomorrow but don’t you worry. Sometimes, it is good to heed advices but sometimes, you have to heed your own advices because in the end, you’re the one living your own life. Not others. What may suit others, may not suit you. You can’t put a cookie-cutter template on the way of life. Basic moulds, maybe, but not the exact preset ones.

However things turn out, la mama and I love each other and want the best for each other. So I’m not too worried about it. At the very least should she want it set above $500, I’ll just opt for el cheapo ring.

Between a ring and honeymoon, come on, mate, you know I will definitely choose honeymoon. You can always buy rings anytime but for a honeymoon experience while you’re still fit and healthy? Damn son, better get in right away!

Can’t wait for the next 12 hours to whiz by because I’ll get to see Beedin!

And Allah is the best. – MM

I Ramble: 14 November 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

I crawled to work. Struck by severe diarrhea. Crawled back home and thankfully, my company is part of some medical health alliance group that allows me free consultation and medicine capped at $50 at participating clincs. Thankfully, the clinic closest to my home is one of them. So I didn’t have to come up with a single penny just now.

I learnt a difficult lesson today.

I also learnt that I have neglected both my soul and my body…all in trying to get confirmation from my workplace.

So I had to let go.

Suddenly, work is no longer important to me right now.

I just want to repair my relationship with Allah before it is too late.

There is a lot of lightning but no thunder right now.

Sometimes, when we have heard enough, we probably just need to see.

And I see it clearly now, I have to be kind to Nurul Huda.

And Allah is Al-Hakim, the Wise. – MM

I Ramble: 13 November 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

I miss my Quran. A lot. Decided to do a random look up based on today’s date, 13/11. So I looked up Chapter 13 Verse 11 on quran.com:

لَهُ مُعَقِّبَاتٌ مِّن بَيْنِ يَدَيْهِ وَمِنْ خَلْفِهِ يَحْفَظُونَهُ مِنْ أَمْرِ اللَّهِ ۗ إِنَّ اللَّهَ لَا يُغَيِّرُ مَا بِقَوْمٍ حَتَّىٰ يُغَيِّرُوا مَا بِأَنفُسِهِمْ ۗ وَإِذَا أَرَادَ اللَّهُ بِقَوْمٍ سُوءًا فَلَا مَرَدَّ لَهُ ۚ وَمَا لَهُم مِّن دُونِهِ مِن وَالٍ – 13:11

each person has guardian angels before him and behind, watching over him by God’s command. God does not change the condition of a people [for the worse] unless they change what is in themselves, but if He wills harm on a people, no one can ward it off–– apart from Him, they have no protector.

For each one are successive [angels] before and behind him who protect him by the decree of Allah . Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves. And when Allah intends for a people ill, there is no repelling it. And there is not for them besides Him any patron.

I find this very apt to describe this point of my life where I’m at and it is even more befitting that the name of the chapter, Ar-Ra’d, means ‘The Thunder’, when there is thunder and rain here in Tampines at about 3am now. I enabled more than one translation of the verse so that the meaning can be clearer for those of us, especially myself, who struggle to understand ye olde English.

I can’t exactly pen into words how I relate so much to this verse right now but let’s just say, whenever I’m looking for answers, I’ve been Spoken to. When He answers, I really need to take the time to reflect.

Actually, I feel the entire chapter is relatable right now. Feel free to have a read if you’re bored at https://quran.com/13. Especially the accompanying verses to verse 11. Like 10, 12, and 13. I really like how the chapter started off with tapping on your faith (“most of the people do not believe”) before tapping onto your intellect (“for people who reflect”), your sound judgement (“for people who reason”) and then your ability to make sense of things (“only those with understanding will take it to heart)”.

That shows, very importantly, that Muslims should not believe blindly but they should reaffirm their faith through reflecting and comprehending the signs of God’s presence.

But I think the best one is verse 24, especially after being patient with life struggles for so long. That one is just, wow, like struggling in life is actually worthwhile.

So here’s to struggling a bit more. Just a little bit more patience needed.

And Allah is Al-Wasi’, the Vast, the All-Encompassing. – MM