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In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

I’m teetering on the brink of high and sleep. Unfortunately, I fell very sick and instead of spending my break from work in the way I wanted to, I had to take most of the time off to recover from the influenza.

I could have gotten the virus from anyone. Everyone everywhere is coughing and sneezing so much so that the flu is very much inescapable for anyone.

It is quite frustrating.

So now I’m just praying that my husband doesn’t catch it from me, which is very very difficult considering we share everything in this house. He has an important audition on the 26th and I really want him to go for it. It’s not like the band is signed onto any recording company but it will be great for his musical career to explore more aspects of playing with various other musicians. If you stick to one band playing the same songs over and over again, you won’t find yourself progressing much. So I really want my husband to progress musically while he still can.

And now I feel like I need a nap but I’m going to try praying Zuhur first before I KO.

Take care, everyone. Seriously, chug down that glass of water. I regret not listening to sound advice.

And Allah is Al-Mujiib, The Responsive One. – MM


In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Blimey, I thought I did the non-obligatory but somehow required first post of the year.

But nooooooope.

I really am who I am!

I hope everyone has gotten into the groove of things because I actually haven’t and we have already reached the end of week 1 of 2020.

Found out my best friend’s meemaw passed on but I don’t quite know what to do so I will offer a prayer instead. Al-Fatihah.

Okay, I’m not quite sure how to segue onto another topic. It’s not something you can bring up and drop easily.

I never quite know the right words to say given any social context.

And most of the times, I only realise how idiotic it sounds when I read my words in a different time and space.

There is clearly a lot of learning to do. I will probably never master any social skills.

And I probably don’t want to master any cooking and baking skills but I have to!


Well, in the words of another friend, “We are what we work for”.

So work hard and play harder.

And Allah is Ar-Raqib, The Watchful One. – MM

Tomorrow Is Next Year!

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Yes, my friends! It’s that time of the year again when tomorrow is next year!


I still remember, when I was a kid, Malaysia had this thing going on about Wawasan 2020, meaning Vision 2020. Well, actually I would define wawasan as a combination of vision and ambition. I’m not going into Malaysia’s progress and development as a country. What I really want to take away from it is to see 2020 as a benchmark year. You know to evaluate how far I have come as a person; whether I have grown as a person and what I hope to achieve in let’s say another five years of my life.

I promised myself that I will liberate myself from debt by the end of 2019.

I’m happy to say that I have settled all of my debts as I have envisioned.

Thank you. Thank you.

So yeah that proves as much of a trainwreck I am, when I set out to achieve something, I can do it.

It’s always a matter of whether I want to or not.

And of course, the help is always from The Almighty, without whom, I cannot achieve anything.

I wouldn’t call it a new year resolution, it’s getting too cliche for me, but I am intent on becoming a better Muslim in 2020 in preparation for life after death.

Initially, I wanted to prepare for death but then I realise, it morbidly does injustice to The Almighty to think of life in that sense.

The sole purpose of life is to worship Him. In fact, it is the only meaning to live. And to worship Him, is to do good deeds in this temporary life while being of benefit to mankind in order to secure a good place in the Afterlife, where the true meaning of to love and be loved is realised.

Okay, I don’t know where that came from but it feels like I have serendipitously unlocked the mystery of my life. Like I totally get it now.

And now I feel like an idiot for only realising it after 30 years.

So soldier on, people! And be a trooper!

And Allah is Al-Kariim, The Most Generous. – MM

Clean, clean, clean

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Ahm… Ehm…. Uhm… Yeah, I haven’t started cleaning my house despite my plans!

Despite planning out cleaning tasks, I find myself completely overwhelmed. I have been looking up ways to clean the house for the past few days (clearly a major sign of procrastination) and I found this article:

Instead of carrying out zonal cleaning like I intended, it suggested methodical cleaning. So basically begin with dusting the entire house, then clean the fabrics, and so on.

I think that sounds like a good plan. I will go for that. Tomorrow is a good day to start. Off days are precious but a little productivity won’t hurt!

And Allah is Al-Jalil, The Mighty. – MM

The Ending Days of 2019

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Needless to say that the cleanliness state of my house remains terrible. Because in the end, I was too hooked onto ‘This Is The Police’. I finished one ending of the game. Husband is asking me to continue with the instalment but meh, looking at the state of my house and actually living in that state, I will need to set that aside for a while.

The theme for 2020? Home Projects!

There is going to be an awful lot of decluttering going on, which will lead to a lot of donation and disposal. Some sort of decorating after all that deep-cleaning as well. Basically the idea is to make sure that my home is guest-ready 24/7 and complete the setting up of what I will call the Audio Room. It is where either one of us or even both of us can jam and record stuff together. So yeah, kinda like a mini-recording suite. We’re not extremely well-equipped but we have just enough stuff to make recordings. The following is what we have:

  • 2 microphones
  • A three-stack Marshall amplifier
  • A Smarvo amplifier
  • 1 electronic drumset but with one faulty pedal, which I’m hoping to be able to fix one day
  • A Line 6 interface
  • A Behringer midi keyboard
  • A Casio keyboard
  • 2 acoustic guitars
  • A Jackson bass guitar
  • 2 custom electric guitars; one is fully assembled by my husband with some help from his friends and one is still in need of assembly
  • An Ibanez red viking electric guitar
  • A microphone stand

So yeah, pretty rad, huh? It just makes more sense now to get that Audio Room done, doesn’t it?

I will have to look into soundproofing the room as well to achieve better functionality. If we’re going to make some noise, best not to upset the neighbours!

And Allah is Al-Hasib, The Accounter. – MM

#Refresh3: A Little Late Into It

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

I know I said I would post on two days ago but my day became completely overwhelmed by unexpected events. I even reached home after 10pm, most probably the latest I’ve been home after work. I do not wish to relive it so I will just skip past that.

And just yesterday, I was busy with the jamming sesh. So yeah.

Let’s just delve into my Post-Christmas Break plans.

And nah, I don’t need to wish you hahaha!

Post-Christmas Break

Day 1 (28/12): Besides getting myself ready to get back to work, it’s also about getting myself ready to get back to business — life business and business business.

On the way to work: Blog.

Break time: Buy belated Secret Santa gift.

On the way home: Listen to ‘Creep’, ‘Price Tag’, ‘Peace Sells…But Who’s Buying’, and ‘Mimpi Yang Sempurna’ multiple times. I wasn’t satisfied with my performance of those songs during the jam. I need to improve.

At home: I’m pretty sure that by now, I wouldn’t be done with my cleaning plans so a continuation sounds good.

Day 2 (29/12): I almost forgot to update — I botched ‘This Is The Police 2’ and returned back to ‘This Is The Police’. Right now I’m about halfway into the game. Hooray!

On the way to work: Blog. Keep that consistency.

Break time: Buy that A3 spread I’ve been meaning to get from Typo.

On the way home: Source for cap printing vendors.

At home: Migrate Street Mob Clothing’s website from Wix to WordPress.

I think that is a good plan for now.

And Allah is Al-Muqit, The Nourisher. – MM

#Refresh2: Sunday Morning

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Not the Sunday morning I would enjoy but a Sunday morning it is nonetheless.

And it is a cold one. Shivering now in the bus.

But the mood is pretty chill. I think today is going to be a good day and I know I can clock out on time today, leaving me with more time to practise singing at home.

And surprisingly, I fulfilled everything on my agenda yesterday. Yippy! So yeah, off to a good start for my Christmas break!

Seeing that we’re on a good run, let’s chart out my Christmas break plans!

Christmas Break

Day 1 (24/12): Last chance to practise, practise, and practise! I’m going to spend the whole day getting ready for the jamming session that night. The following is the setlist:

  1. Creep by Radiohead
  2. Akan Ku Tunggu by Candy
  3. Like A Stone by Audioslave
  4. Zombie by The Cranberries
  5. Price Tag by Jessie J. feat. B.o.B
  6. For Whom The Bell Tolls by Metallica
  7. Ikrar Perwira by Rusty Blade
  8. Morning Glory by Oasis
  9. Paranoid by Black Sabbath
  10. Kekejaman by Rockers
  11. The Trooper by Iron Maiden
  12. Halo On Fire by Metallica
  13. Kasihnya Laila by Jinbara
  14. Do I Wanna Know? by Arctic Monkeys
  15. Seek And Destroy by Metallica
  16. Peace Sells…But Who’s Buying? by Megadeath
  17. Mimpi Yang Terindah by Peterpan

To be honest, I’m not sure if we can squeeze everything in two hours but we’ll give it a go.

Main event: Jamming Session at Asry Sound Production from 8pm to 10pm.

Day 2 (25/12): I know I will be a little hungover from the music sesh but I intend to fully utilise the day for some really deep-cleaning of my house. Here’s a list of what needs to be done:

  1. Front Door: Clean door bell and around it. Dust the grille gate and the door. Wipe if needed. Wipe the floor.
  2. Entrance: Dust cobwebs from ceiling and corners. Dust the shoerack. Wipe if needed.
  3. Kitchen: Dust the kitchen door. Wipe if needed. Dust the ceiling, appliances and corners. Clean the walls, appliances, countertop and sink. Sweep, vacuum, and mop the floor.
  4. Bathroom: Dust the bathroom doors. Wipe if needed. Dust the ceiling and corners. Clean the walls, mirror, shelves, toilet, shower, and sink. Scrub the floor.
  5. Living Room: Dust the ceiling, ceiling fans, furniture and cupboard doors. Wipe if needed. Sweep, vacuum, and mop the floor.
  6. Audio Room: Dust the ceiling, appliances, and furniture. Wipe if needed. Sweep, vacuum, and mop the floor.
  7. Bedroom: Dust the ceiling, appliances, and furniture. Wipe if needed. Sweep, vacuum, and mop the floor.

Main event: Cleaning marathon.

Day 3 (26/12): Husband has a medical appointment at 11am. Also, my library books are due! Should I not finish with my cleaning chores, I can continue on this day. I hope everything goes well for the appointment. He seems keen on the steroid treatment for his trigger finger.

Main event: Hospital appointment.

Day 4 (27/12): Last day of my Christmas break! Damn! Again, I will just continue my chores and hopefully be done with! Also, mentally prepare myself for work. The next break I can catch is in February.

Main event: Cleaning marathon.

That’s all I have for now. I’ll update the Post-Christmas Break plans tomorrow!

And Allah is Al-Hafiz, The Preserver. – MM


In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Ola! Wow, haven’t been here in ages as always and definitely not happy to report that I have perpetually failed to rouse at 5am.

I think my body is too old for it. I know, reconditioning is always possible but damn, it is hard with the type of job I have.

So, quit my job? Lol sure but I will need a better plan first or else it looks like I will be stuck here for sometime.

But you know what, let’s just forget about my failures and focus on regrouping again. In three days’ time, I will be getting a little Christmas holiday break. Thought it will be a good chance to weigh things out and do some deep-cleaning in the house in preparation for the new year, 2020.

I know, what the heck, right? I remember thinking as a kid that 2020 is like some far away distant future because at that point of time it was still the good old 90s. Even after entering the millennium, I still felt that 2020 was distant. And now, whoa, Insya Allah, I will be living it!

And Insya Allah, I won’t be living it single! ;P

Of course, there is nothing wrong with being single. I must admit I’m still struggling to remember I’m married sometimes hahaha! I’m just too used to doing things by myself and going places by myself that many times people around me have to dial me back and remind me that I have a husband to take care of hehehe!

But all is good in general for me. Still not in the most ideal situation in terms of finances and self-management as (we have established by now) but you know, I’m happy. Hooray!

The manic depressive spells still happen once in a while but those have been more manageable for the past year. But I don’t want to jinx it! So let’s move on to another topic.

So yeah let’s break down my pre-Christmas break plans:

Pre-Christmas Break

Day 1 (21/12): That’s a cool date. So what shall I do first that’s just as cool? Well, one of the problems I face holding onto this job is the lack of time. So on a workday like today, I will need to breakdown my day into sections and figure out if I have enough time to do whatever it is I want or need to do. Sometimes work gets so hectic that my break is barely a break to be honest so I will have to try now.

On the way to work: Blog

Break time: Draw a number for gift exchange and buy snacks to pack into gifts for co-workers.

On the way home: Catch up on some Arsenal news. Arteta is manager?! Omo!

At home: Practise singing for jamming session on 24/12. Play ‘This Is The Police 2’ as a reward.

Day 2 (22/12): I’m currently addicted to the game if you’re wondering what ‘This Is The Police 2’ is about. I got it on Steam. I bought it together with ‘This Is The Police’.

On the way to work: Blog because why not?

Break time: Catch up on some reading. I need to return my library books soon!

On the way home: Continue reading because deadline’s looming!

At home: Practise singing for jamming session on 24/12. Play ‘This Is The Police 2’ as a reward.

Day 3 (23/12): I don’t think I would have finished TITP2 by this date so it definitely stays as my daily reward for my hard work!

On the way to work: Continue reading library book.

Break time: Continue reading library book.

On the way home: Blog.

At home: Practise singing for jamming session on 24/12. Play ‘This Is The Police 2’ as a reward.

That’s that for now. Will continue blogging tomorrow and chart out my Christmas break plans!

And Allah is Al-Kabir, The Greatest. -MM

5-ting My Way to Achieve 5AM Wake-Up Time Again! — I Ramble: 24 October 2019

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Not gonna lie, man. I think back then it was so much simpler to wake up at 5am because I slept alone so there wasn’t a direct temptation for me to get back to bed whereas now that I’m married, I’m looking at someone knocked out cold on the bed and I just wanted to join him in that peaceful slumber.


Yep, so now I have to learn to get myself up regardless of whether Beedin, my husband, is asleep or not. Gotta haul ass, gotta build an empire, son. It’s not gonna build by itself. I think I’m gonna be a bitch and just turn the lights on at 5am. Like man, if I’m gonna be up this early, damn straight you gonna be too. HAHAHA! But it doesn’t work most of the time. He still sleeps like baby through all the lights and sounds. Sheesh!

But I must not allow myself to be tempted into crawling into bed with him!

1. So yeah, first thing to do when I wake up is to hit that light switch just to tell my body, mate, it is daytime, and it is time to start building your motherfucking empire.

Okay, I’m a little vulgar these days because I’m too influenced by the Western culture, specifically what got me in the mood is hip-hop. Been watching Rhythm + Flow on Netflix, that’s why.

2. Say the waking up prayer and chug down a glass of water and a tablet of fish oil.

Gotta fend off those fucking devils trying to get you back to sleep, clothing you with pigskin. And a glass of water really helps with my digestion, yo.

3. Make my bed, which is basically folding my blanket if anything, really.

If I can’t tackle a small task, how do I even fucking build an empire, you know what I’m saying?

4. Wash up before facing my Maker.

I’m pretty sure my Maker would appreciate me putting some effort in presenting myself before Him, and He would definitely appreciate me more for finding Him first above all other things. If it is not time for the mandatory morning prayer yet, I can always perform the non-obligatory prayer for bonus points. Never know when you might need the extra cookie to get through the day.

5. Make my own breakfast. Fucking cook, if you have to, woman!

Man, I have been avoiding the kitchen my whole life simply because I don’t enjoy being in there! But you know, my funds have drained dry thanks to me not being able to cook and yo, it really costs half a kidney just to eat out the whole month for two people. Okay, maybe a quarter of a kidney.

So hopefully the 5-step framework will help me through in managing my mornings. Like just do that everyday and see how things go. I think those are the essential things. For now, I’m not putting in any exercise in the morning, mostly because I don’t think I’ll have time for that. I think once I’ve found momentum and picked up steam, then it’ll be more practical to think about exercising. But for now, noooooooope.

Because right now I’m mostly in need of giving myself reasons to be up than to think, “Oh, wow, I can actually sleep for another whole hour and rush through my morning because sleep is awesome!”

That’s really my problem. Like I rather sleep than make breakfast. But that’s got to change if I want to build an empire. Success cannot come from an empty wallet and malnutrition. And success doesn’t give you an empty wallet nor malnutrition. Hey!

I think I’m getting tired and although I’m really not looking forward to getting back to work, I should get into bed now at least and just look forward to the start of my empire…by waking up at 5am.

That will be all. We’ll start small and grow big!

And Allah is Al-‘Ali, the Sublimely Exalted. – MM

I Can’t Even Do 5AM, Son! — I Ramble: 15 October 2019

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Needless to say, I failed in waking up at 5am everyday! In fact, I couldn’t even manage one day of 5am! I can totally relate to the guys who tried out the CEO’s morning and evening routines:

But at least they succeeded eventually! Unlike me!


But I shall try again!

Screenshot taken from video above.

And Allah is Ash-Shakur, the Most Appreciative. – MM