I Ramble: 12 November 2016

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

Hi! Well, it’s been very hectic for me. A lot of fatigue and my flu is not helping me much in that department. A lot of work and having to deal with crises is not helping me achieve the progress I long to see.

Still, I think I need to take a step back and realise that despite the imperfections and challenges we encountered during this musical project, we actually did relatively well considering our very short timeframe. I’m truly truly grateful for all the help and effort I have received for the project and I know, I am not the easiest nor the best person to work with, so that says a lot about the gratitude I feel for all of everybody’s hard work.

Alhamdulillah. Out of nowhere, help arrives whenever I need it most. I can’t even remember if I have ever talked about it here — that I had a meeting with my P in a bid to stick to the original plan of the project in raising monetary contribution to a welfare home. I offered to offload the costume cost and the P is trying to get a company to sponsor light f&b for the live performance of the musical. So our budget really diminished from a stunning $700 to $250 to the capital needed for the DVDs, which is about $50.

Well, guess what? A parent offered me blank DVDs for us to record the filming of the musical. OH. MY. GOD. Seriously, unexpected. It was like, heaven dropped those DVDs down to us. Ya Allah, thank you so much, ya Allah. Bless that parent. Bless all who have prayed for the smoothness of the project!

That basically brought our budget to $0. That means truly, all proceeds can go to the home as how I actually envisioned it to be from the very beginning. Alhamdulillah.

Well, another example of me receiving help when I least expect it is when A dropped by at work today to help rectify a supposed error for one of the play’s backdrops. Ya Allah. All I did was whine, whine, whine to A about it and then ehhhh, you serious ah you wanna help?! At first I was hesitant because I didn’t want to trouble him and he really should rest at home after working hard on the audio production for our play. But then I was really out of ideas on how to troubleshoot the error and if there is anything I have learnt, after countless times being scolded by my colleagues, is that I need to recognise when I have a certain limitation. After recognising that limitation, I then have to learn to accept other people’s help. Plus, time was of the essence, so okay, jump in, mate. Let’s get this thing done.

Aaaaaaand of course, just what was I expecting when A is around? Hahahaha! Don’t get me wrong, we were actually really productive, kudos to us! (Well, okay, he was more productive than I was hahahaha!) Besides troubleshooting the banner, he tutored me briefly on using Reaper and Audacity so I won’t be having problems during the DVD recording sessions from this coming Monday to Wednesday and he also transferred the audio clips I need for those sessions after discussing at length in finalising it. We also got to hash things out like grown-ups. I always welcome that. It’s good practice for me definitely. I know that if I want to be in a relationship, I want to stay in it for life. I don’t see the point of getting into a commitment and just breaking it off over ‘irreconcilable differences’. Let’s all face it, we are ALL different BUT we can make a positive difference in the way we communicate and interact. If ever there is a speedbump or a roadblock along the way, it is okay if you don’t talk about it at that very moment. Heck, it is also okay if you don’t talk about it the very next day. Just let that conversation naturally happen, when both have clear heads to talk about it. Trust me, people. You may do better by adopting my method HAHAHA, yeah, right. Well, actually, just try it because when you accept the uncomfortable situation, you indirectly accept the way the person is. So at the end of the day, you truly can say you accept your partner for his/her good and bad.

Damn, maybe I can be a love guru. HAHA! NOT! Wow, I absolutely digressed. Anyway, since we were both struck by the infamous hunger coma (hahaha!), we decided to grab lunch first before heading home. He even let me molest his handphone! Huahuahuahua! Well, actually it was more like, you take it or you take it. Eh, don’t get wrong ideas. I was actually being tutored on Clash of Clans. HAHAHAHA! Yes, the learning never ends with A around hahahaha! Well, it was good fun. I always enjoyed learning from him.

So yeah I started out the day full of dread but I am ending it with slight regret. I don’t know… Hanging out with A makes it feel like time just zooms by. Like ehhhh, I want more time, please. I don’t know… It’s like on one hand, I feel satisfied that I had a great day but on the other hand, I don’t feel satisfied because all too soon we have to part. Huh. Maybe I’m just the weird one. Oh, wells.

To summarise, today felt somewhat similar to our beach session, where we sat down and get a song done. Well, today we sat down and got things done as well.

Also, it was nice to hear him laugh a lot today. That man needs to laugh more! Each time he laughed, it was like an excitable minion in him was unleashed. The true happy side of him. Of course, I didn’t tell him this and I don’t intend to. Not like he reads my blog either. Muahahaha! But yeah, it was truly nice to see him relaxed and carefree. Seeing him like that made me forget all my worries. Really, we were just two people being merry and laughing at our own silly jokes instead of being two serious professionals.

So that’s about it. Eye-opening day but now it’s time for eye-closing. It’s 11pm and if I’m still going to try to achieve my goal of sleeping at 11pm, I should put some effort into it.

Guten nacht!

And Allah is Knower of all things. – MM


I Ramble: 1 May 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Happy Labour Day, everyone! I hope everyone is enjoying their long weekend! I know I have! However, the lack of sleep is killing my body. Ugh.

It’s that time of the month whereby I check my progress in achieving my 2016 goals. So far… very unsuccessful. Ha!

Anyway, I really have to get back to sleeping at 11pm and waking up at 5am. Until I nail that down, we are all going to have a problem with my lethargy, lack of productivity, and tardiness.

I have updated my goals. Those I have achieve and/or am consistent in achieving were struck out in black. Those I had to cancel or amend were struck out in red:

2016 goals updated 01052016


I have been wondering if I would do better in achieving those goals by having some sort of an anchor person or life coach who would help me keep on track. For waking up, I will just text my colleague upon waking up at 5am. They say it takes 21 days to form a habit? I will do that consistently for 21 days and see how it goes.

Alrighty. Right back what is wrong, we move along.

And He is Knower of all things. – MM