I Ramble: 20 May 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

Oh, my goodness. That is all I could manage for now.

Wow. Wow. Wow.

Well, things are definitely getting more interesting. Very unexpected but very interesting. I am okay with things being like this to be honest but I do hope to have a good conclusion at the end of things.

Why the cryptic nonsense, Nurul Huda?

Well, guys, see here; interesting developments have occurred in my personal life. Usually, I would elaborate but I think right now, I would give it a miss and keep those developments to myself. Muahahahaha.

However, there are a couple of things that I suppose I could go through in the post.

Firstly, oh wow I managed to get through the entire week at work after having a new responsibility fall into my lap. A colleague injured herself and that warranted her unfit for work until 25 May. As such, I have been appointed to supervise the intern at work in my colleague’s place instead. It is not that big a deal to be frank but I somehow feel the weight of the responsibility. My other colleagues commented that I took that task rather seriously. I talked to my P about it. She asked whether I was interested in the mentoring aspect of it. I couldn’t really answer her. I did not have any mentoring qualifications so I really am not sure if I managed to impart the right things to the intern. I did not have any leadership qualifications, knowledge, or experiences. Well… I did enjoy the feeling of being able to pick out things that could help the intern improve herself professionally or her lessons. Maybe I was hesitant to answer my P because I really am not sure if I am up for the position of a senior teacher. By admitting that I enjoyed supervising the intern, I might end up signalling to them that I am ready for the role. Personally, I do not feel I am ready for it because I am not equipped with the skills and knowledge. On the other hand, my entire career thus far has been about being thrown in the deep end of the pool and learning to survive on the get-go. Hmm… also, it looks like I will have to supervise her longer as my colleague will only return on 30 June in the end. Oh, to be fair, I also enjoyed learning from the intern as well. Reminds me when I was still all bright-eyed and enthusiastic about learning the tools of the trade. And we all know I am always up from learning no matter who teaches me. 🙂

Secondly, family affairs. I won’t go into the details but basically, I am being put in a position whereby I will have to takeover the family’s financial responsibilities sooner than I would like to. I would really like to finish paying off my study loan this year so having 1k out of the window each month has left me very very tight with money. I don’t quite understand how we ended up in this predicament but if He wills it to be, I can only do what I have to to please Him. Hmm… yeah this matter is slightly heavier than the first one… plus it is coupled with recent developments in the family as well. Well, Nurul Huda, you’ve got bills to pay and mouths to feed. Welcome to being 30 soon. At the end of the day, just make sure you can safely say, “Jangan cakap Nurul Huda tak payung”.

Regardless, I feel blessed with my current tests in life. I hope I can do well in all of them. Insya Allah.

And He is Knower of all things. – MM