Written in 2016.
I’m stuck at work again
I’ve been at it since 8am
Working hard like a man
Wondering how my life turned out like this
Mama told me forget romance
You better work, baby, earn your keep
Cos if you don’t, you’ll be damned
When he leaves you, he leaves you with nothing
Sacrifice my sleep
These days I’m barely counting sheep
All the meals I had to skip
Gotta do what must be done
Just to earn my keep
My feet ache
But not as bad as my heart
Plunged into the abyss
Waiting to hit the bottom end
My head spins
But not as dizzying as your games
Rotating on wheels
Creaking sounds of carousel
Round, round, round we go
When we stop, nobody knows
And so it turns
The wheel of life
Hoping it will bring me somewhere
I realise
We are so full of despair
The only thing we have is air
My hands hurt
From the bites of the cold
But not as cold
As your heart
My heart burns
From the flames of your lies
Screeching tyres
I gotta burn some rubber out of here
Round, round, round they go
Where they stop, nobody knows
And so it turns
The wheel of life
Hoping it will bring me somewhere
I realise
We are so full of despair
That even the day is
As dark as the winter night
I hold a light to your face
But you erased my name
The only thing we have is air
The only thing we have is air
To breathe
But we never know if we do live
And so it turns
The wheel of life
Hoping it will bring me somewhere
I realise
We are so full of despair
The only thing we have is air
And so it turns
The wheel of life
Hoping it will bring me somewhere
I realise
We are so full of despair
That even the day is
As dark as the winter night
The only thing I have is you
But you erased me
I chant your name
A wish in the back of my head
Hoping to see you right in front of me
I cry out Your name
A desire that is deep in my heart
Hoping to know if You will hear me
Blasphemy
This love is just an illusion
Yet it’s so real to me
If I can see, I can feel
If I can feel, I can touch
I guess a little is too much
I bow down in fear
A longing to make you stay here
Hoping that you will love me
I walk away when You’re near
A yearning to be with my dear
Hoping that You will let me love him
Impiety
Your love is more than illusion
It’s so real yet I oversee
I’m deaf and dumb
And dumb and blind
I know too little in my mind
Metropolitan Muslimah 