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I Challenge: Boho Berry Challenge – December: Year-End Review (28 December 2018)

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Wowsies. I actually did a challenge and completed it! Yay! It is the Boho Berry December Challenge!

Just click on the picture to know what it is all about. I’ve linked it to Boho Berry’s site regarding the challenge itself. I’m psyched to share my answers to the challenge right here.

Firstly, of course, I would like to thank my husband, Beedin, for supplying me with the notebook in which I did the journalling challenge.

It is just a small pocket notebook with blank pages in them, which proved useful in letting me doodle here and there. Thanks, Bee!

Secondly, I copied the list of topics in the challenge so I didn’t have to refer to my phone each time.

Yeah, I had a little fun handlettering the title but as you can see, I clearly lack spatial awareness. Just crammed the entire title up there on the page.

Next, I proceeded to do sort of a cover for the challenge. Was inspired by Amanda Rachel Lee’s December 2018 Bullet Journal set-up. Have a look at the following video.

Now have a look at my doodle. Bwahahahaha! So far away from her creation.

Then I went ahead with contributing to all of the topics.

1. Introductions

2. 2018 in Three Words

3. Favourite Memory

4. Biggest Accomplishment

5. Biggest Challenge

6. This Year, I…

7. Time Well Spent

8. Successes

9. Could Have Gone Better

10. Money Well Spent

11. Progress Towards Goals

Not going to share a sharp image of the above as I feel those goals are quite personal. But you can see them anyway if you put in the effort. HAHAHAHAHA!

12. New Skills Learnt

13. Breakthrough Moment

14. Smart Decisions

15. Good Habits Formed

16. Bad Habits Broken

17. Unfinished Business

18. Theme/Word for 2019

19. Start Doing

20. Keep Doing

21. Stop Doing

22. Out of My Comfort Zone

At this point of sharing, I believe I became less retrospective and more prospective instead. I think this topic should cover an event in 2018 where I got myself out of my comfort zone. Instead, I recorded what I would like to do in 2019 that would take me out of my comfort zone. But for the record, yeah, going on The Mummy ride for the second time sure was a step out of my comfort zone. All done for love’s sake! Hahahaha!

23. Setting Intentions

24. Something New

25. Self-care

I’ll just continue the sentence here: to…remain soft and smooth all year round.

26. Contribution, 27. Education & 28. Career

Once again, these turned out to be less retrospective than they were supposed to, I feel.

29. 2019 Will Feel Successful If…

30. Top Three 2019 Goals

31. Lessons Learned

There we go! Finally Huda has successfully completed a challenge! Yippy!

I must say that doing this exercise really helped me to have better ideas on how I’d like to plan out my 2019 Bullet Journal. I was really forced to sit and think through some of the topics. You can try it and you will also find that it can be tedious in certain aspects, especially when you are forced to think quite hard on life questions that you would sometimes prefer to leave unanswered. Muahahaha!

I hope everyone reading this would feel drawn to journalling and picking up similar challenges and more importantly, complete them. It would really organise your thoughts better and help you see your life from a different angle and reassess it.

Fun fact: It took me 40 minutes or so to do up this post, mostly in snapping the photos of the entries and positioning them under each heading. I wanted to start on my 2019 Bullet Journal but I’m starting to feel burnt out from just doing this post.

Yes, I have been feeling burnt out from doing little tasks recently. I think my depression is worsening but the reality is, I can never get it checked.

Because no one would believe me? Not sure. But I think it has been so overly glamourised that I much rather not deal with it.

Simple things have become so difficult to do. I take a longer time to do things that can be done in a minute or even a heartbeat.

And I feel so downright tired all the time.

Or maybe it’s just my diarrhea.

Welp.

And Allah is Ar-Razzaq, the Total Provider. – MM

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I Ramble: 21 September 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

I just realised that I have been sick for a week today. That’s bad and I’m nowhere near recovery. My appetite has gotten worse and off days just feel like overslept days. I don’t feel like I get to enjoy my off days. 😦

I tried to relax my mind but all my mind could do was to think, “Oh, shucks, I have to work tomorrow”. That’s the sucky thing about my workplace. They don’t let you take MC. Then how the heck are you supposed to recover, right? Hais. Sometimes, I just want to give up but I am telling myself to gather my last bits of determination to give the place another chance. Probably a last chance. I’m giving myself until February 2019 and if it feels like crap, the best thing to do is to just leave. But for now, I have to overcome all these feelings of the place and the job being difficult. I actually told myself that I should stay for five years, just like my preschool job but after working here for a year, I definitely congratulated myself for being able to stay that long. Honestly, a lot of people just give up and the best part is, they’re mostly part-timers. So well, you know, that just emphasises how bad things must be for full-timers!

I know my command of the English Language is in ruins right now but that just means I should keep blogging amd vlogging, right? Practise to perfection.

Not like anybody can be absolutely perfect because only Allah is perfect.

Speaking of Allah, I feel like I have neglected him a lot and forgotten him a lot and it’s just so hard to get back to my good Muslimah ways again. Oh, the temptations of this world!

The fact that I’m still sitting on the couch and blogging instead of praying my Maghrib, shows my deliquency.

Okay, I will have to rush this now.

I’ve been itching to vlog but I have absolutely no inspiration to vlog. The easiest is to probably vlog about my wedding and honeymoon but I’m not gonna be so mainstream like that for now. I just want to get back to the usual vlogging before making any special vlogs I suppose. In retrospect, I don’t think I can even share my honeymoon media. They’re much too private. HAHAHAHA! So, the wedding it is but not anytime soon.

So what’s the story, morning glory?

And Allah is Al-Quddus, the Most Holy. – MM

I Ramble: 23 January 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

I’m at the polyclinic now, waiting for my turn to see the receptionist. My number is 7526 and the queue number is currently at 7496. Fret not. The queue moves pretty quickly here.

The reason why I’m here is because of a dreadful cold I’m having. I can’t handle them children with my nose leaking. Goodness! Will definitely give their lunch some flavouring though. Hehehe.

And my achy and sore muscles are not helping me much. Adoi.

I’m just going to douse myself with medicine and force my entire being to relax. I’m feeling quite uptight to be honest because a part of me feels egoistic. Come on, it’s only January and I’m already taking MC? Yet another part of me is screaming, bloody hell, woman, get a rest already!

Le boyfriend is telling me that I am mentally exhausted. I don’t know. I don’t quite feel that way. He said that it might not feel that way to me but my mind might be secretly overthinking or overworrying.

So I was forced to face my thoughts as I walked to the polyclinic alone in the rain. Le boyfriend is such a sweetheart. He offered to accompany me today but I assured him that there was no need to. Of course, I do want him by my side but at the same time, maybe I was quite used to doing things by myself that I felt there was no need to. I must say I regretted that decision slightly when I felt woozy at 3/4 of the way to the polyclinic. But never fear! Baeda is alright.

Okay, I checked in with the receptionist. Now I’m waiting to see the GP. Where was I and what was I saying again? Oh, dear. Can’t remember. Never mind, let’s start again. Well, now my number is 5622 and the queue is currently at 4799. Don’t worry. The queue number skips because they will put patient 4800 at another room for example. So instead of it running linearly, the numbers are distributed amongst the GP rooms available. It is now at 4895 so it is not too bad. However, I must say I am slightly worried due to the fact that my ticket states my timeslot with the doctor as 4:05pm and it is only 3:00pm now. Okay, slight regret creeping up again from not accepting le boyfriend’s offer. BUT! Never fear! Baeda is still good here! For some reason though my right arm muscle is aching from typing this post. Toinggg. Okay, I’m giving my arm a bit of a rest for now.

And Allah is Ar-Rahman, the All-Compassionate. – MM