In the name of Allah, the most Beneficent, the most Merciful.

The feeling I have been having lately is tired.

But now more feelings are trickling in.

Now I feel empty.

And I feel very very sad.

May Allah help me. – MM

In the name of Allah, the most Beneficent, the most Merciful.

I’m feeling extremely tired and somewhat lonely huhu. Le husband is hooked onto GTA IV on my desktop. Huhuhu. A part of me wants to game too but another part of me is simply feeling meh, too tired.

Hais hais hais. I finally played GTA V a bit more with le husband and I have been feeling the urge to play it but that very tired part of me is like nope, no way.

Hais hais hais.

I know, I have a lot of complaints right now but…well, there are quite a fair bit of things to complain about.

In all fairness though, I have swallowed quite a lot of things and to be honest, right now, I feel completely swallowed.

And I’m just struggling to fight it off.

Hais hais hais.

And Allah is Ar-Rahim, the most Merciful.

In the name of Allah, the most Beneficent, the most Merciful.

OH EM GEE.

Been forever since I updated. Trolololol! I was a maiden previously and now I’m a married woman! How much have things changed over a short amount of time?!

Apparently I now have a new nickname at work, which le husband has caught onto: Hudang. Hehehe. Huda plus udang (prawn).

I have been entertaining the thought of having a mini-Hudang rolling around in my womb but le husband insists on family planning because he doesn’t want us to struggle financially nor hold resentments against each other or worse, at the baby.

And omg, sex? I will need to ask le husband before I post anything about it. Marriage secrets are supposed to be well, sacred. On the other hand, I wished I had known what I only know now.

So anyway, I have been really sick. Le husband has fallen ill too. So the both of us have been staying home and gaming while recovering. Huhu.

Anyway, I’m quite vexed by something work-related, which I will only be able to find out after I receive a letter. I am anxious about what the letter contains because things might change…

That’s all from me for now. Just know that I am well and very loved and almost have no need for this blog because I always run to le husband regarding stuff.

But I suppose I should practise my writing. Hehe.

And Allah is Ar-Rahman, the most Beneficent.

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

I was looking at pictures tagged with ‘fairy lights bedroom’ on Google and found the following image.

And lo! I stumbled upon the video showing how to do it. Teehee.

I had no idea that using alcohol to rub the patch on the wall will help the plastic hook to stick on better and longer! What a lifehack! Or maybe I’m too dense to have known that. Hmm.

Having polaroids on fairy lights seem nice too.

But… I don’t think this will happen anytime soon. Will just toss this idea aside first until we have the budget for it.

Joget!

And Allah is always watching. – MM

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

I’m finally feeling the pressures of having a wedding in less than two months. Mostly because le fiance’s health has been deteriorating, which leads to me worrying if he’s fit enough to stay at his current job and if he will have enough time to get preparations done on his end.

And after yesterday’s talk with Khairiyah, I’m supposed to buy lingerie as well. But I’m not sure if I can even get any at this point due to financial uncertainties.

And well today is the start of four consecutive morning shifts.

Gambatteh.

And Allah is always watching, Allah is always fair, Allah is always looking, and Allah is always there. – MM

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

Yep, I decided to delete my recent angst-addled post. I think, I actually didn’t need to write it at all if I had told le fiance all about it in the first place. Whenever he listens, it’s as though the whole world listens to me. So just sharing with him is enough to be honest. I realise that is why I don’t blog or vlog often anymore. He is enough for me.

However, I still do vlog and blog because I do get that journalistic bug from time to time.

Like right now.

I must say that it has been a wonderful ride with le fiance so far. So many ups and downs for the past one year and one month plus that we have been engaged. Now we’re less than two months away from finally reaching that milestone each of us has been dreaming of for a long time.

I have been sitting on my ass on a lot of things in my life. But after yesterday, I’m more inspired to hop onto the wedding wagon.

“Make it work.” – Tim Gunn of Project Runway

And Allah is Al-Rahman, the Most Beneficent. – MM