In the name of Allah, The Beneficent, The Merciful.
Hello! How has the holidays been for you? It was mostly work for me so nothing about it felt like any sort of holiday. But that’s life as a working class man like me.
I have promised myself that I will change my life this year. But that determination was nowhere to be found two days ago. Ha! Woke up very late in the afternoon with a headache, which led to me downing multiple cups of caffeine and going to bed only at 2am.
I was just sorta thankful that Syuruk is after 7am so I could somewhat sneak that usual 4-5 hour sleep in. Not good because I should be making an effort for tahajud and then making it for Subuh from the very first minute.
It is all about priorities and clearly, I have been like any normal human being, wrapped up in the illusions projected by this world.
Choices are easy to make but the follow-up actions are always hard to execute.
A lot of people have been giving a retrospective of their past year and the prospective of their new year goals. Let’s review the success of my 2021 planning before we jump into the my 2022 planning.
Retrospective:
I like to use simple traffic light colour coding nowadays. Red for not achieved, amber for somewhat achieved, and green for achieved.
I did not achieve any of my 2021 goals.
But that does not mean my year was a complete failure.
- I feel like I read the Quran in the morning more than I have had in my past. But I kind of dropped the ball recently as I go into 2022. I think I would like to revise this goal for 2022.
- Although I did not exercise every Monday and although I gained weight instead, I ran, for the first time in my life, the most in a single year! And I even got two medals out of running!
- I did not get to fully konmari the house because I do not have the energy of a childless housewife. However, we managed to clear a lot of things out of the storeroom and we managed to revamp one room into our own music studio.
- Although SMC has not generated any profits for me, it is actually a viable business because the setting up is done. I just need to put actual time and effort into it to make it a success.
Prospective:
I have realised over the course of my life that as much as I want to do everything in life, I really just cannot. There are only a few things you can focus at one time and that is okay. I had to keep telling myself that it is okay.
Even at work now I keep telling myself to let things go. Always consciously having to tell myself that there is no need to go the distance and to just lay back. I did not know it was that hard to be honest. Working 200% has become so natural that it became awkward to operate at 50%.
I even knocked my eye socket bone against a metal bar yesterday in a bid to get things done quickly. It hurts whenever I touch it. From experience of dropping a metal frame on my foot, I think it will hurt for a very, very, very long time. I think I got a hairline fracture on my foot bone so I will not be surprised if I get a hairline fracture on my eye socket bone. Ugh.
And no, I’m not going to bother to claim compensation. Money does not mean anything to me.
I hope to achieve my goals. Let’s begin!
And Allah is Al-Malik, The Eternal Lord.
Metropolitan Muslimah 