I Record: I’ve just wasted 13 minutes of your life…maybe (2019 Episode 1)

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful.

And Allah is Al-Baasit, the Expander, the Munificent. – MM

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I Write: Mortal — Chapter 5

Just before Zola could approach the girl sobbing on her right to comfort her, two student councillors escorted the girl out of the hall. They moved so quickly that Zola could not find the chance to speak to them.

Zola took another look at her surroundings. The hall was fast being emptied out, which allowed her to see a more familiar face.

“Afif!” Zola finally found her voice.

Afif acknowledged with a nod and held out his hand to her to signal her to wait for him.

Zola waited patiently for a good five minutes while Afif tended to a wounded male student. Once he was done, the student was wheeled away and Afif made his way to Zola.

“How are you holding up, Zola?” Afif asked without delay.

“I’m…I’m just…in shock,” Zola tried her best to finish her sentence.

Afif looked at her sympathetically and then took a seat beside her. He sighed, while his visage wore a frown. Clearly, there was something he needed to tell her but he didn’t know how.

“Where is Nerea?!” Lyuben bellowed as he entered the hall. Zola and Afif looked up at him. Afif rose from his seat to face him. Zola turned to look at where Venera had left Nerea previously but she was missing.

“Calm down, Lyuben,” Afif used a controlled voice to counter Lyuben’s outburst.

“Just tell me where she is!” Lyuben cried out.

“She was just here with me. Venera left her here with me,” Zola chimed in.

“Then where is she now?!” Lyuben sprang towards Zola but Afif quickly held him back.

“We’ll find her. There’s no need to flip out like that. Zola is still in shock. You can’t find her like this. Right now is not a good time to act this way. We already have a situation in our hands,” Afif said while maintaining his grip on Lyuben.

“But -“

Afif turned Lyuben’s face towards him and looked deeply into his eyes. Zola noticed a drastic change in Lyuben’s gaze, which made her feel bewildered.

What the hell was that?

The two guys broke their gaze and Lyuben stepped back, looking slightly overcome. Whatever hold that Afif had over him must have worked as Lyuben slumped himself beside Zola weakly.

Seriously, what the hell was that?

Zola wondered.

“Afif, I need a report. Are the wounded tended to?” A familiar voice interrupted Zola’s thought. Venera arrived looking slightly frazzled.

“Yes, the injured kins have been relocated to the infirmary below and
all kiths who were wounded have been sent to the hospital,” Afif said dutifully. “The wardens will explain to the kiths’ hospital as discussed. I have dispensed the memory tampering potion you passed me to each one of the kiths, even the uninjured.”

“Good, I will need you to at the infirmary to check on their progress and let me know immediately when anyone is fully healed. I need every single one of their help to combat the Qakkirs.”

“Would you like me to recall our kiths’ guardian angels?”

Venera thought for a moment before replying Afif, “No, I will need them to monitor what is happening beyond Arevig’s grounds. I just want to be sure that the Qakkirs are confined to Arevig forest. More importantly, I want them to ensure that the kiths do not remember anything about this crisis.”

“Venera!” A sullen student councillor interjected while running towards her. “We have ensured that all the kiths have been safely escorted and transported out. Potions are also dispensed to them.”

The student councillor noticed Lyuben nearby and went towards him. He placed his hand on Lyuben’s shoulder and said, “Nerea is safe.”

Lyuben looked up at the mention of Nerea’s name. The student councillor continued, “She is on the way home and safe. Do not worry about her anymore.”

Lyuben put on an appreciative smile and patted on the councillor’s hand, “Thanks, Johnson.”

The councillor by the name of Johnson then turned to Zola and his face became more sullen. “Venera, why is she allowed here?”

“I need her here, Johnson.”

“I don’t understand.”

“I’m not sure myself, which is why I need her to stay here until I’ve figured it out. Her middle name is Chichi.”

Johnson raised his eyebrows and turned away from Zola. “Whatever it is, figure it out quickly, Venera, for her safety.”

“Don’t tell me what to do,” Venera said, slightly annoyed.

Johnson chuckled and started walking away from them, “I’ll check on the action outside.”

Zola gasped loudly when she saw Johnson disappearing into thin air as he walked out. Venera, Afif, and Lyuben looked at Zola immediately.

“He… he…. he…” Zola tried to string her words together but failed as her trembling finger tried to point at the spot where Johnson disappeared.

“He’s such a show off, don’t mind him,” Venera said coolly. “Right, Afif, off you go to the infirmary now.”

“Like now? Like that?” Afif gestured towards Johnson’s disappearance spot.

“You might as well. We need to tell her anyway.”

Afif shrugged and vanished. Zola’s jaw dropped.

What the-

Before she could even finish her thought, she felt the heavy presence beside her lift off in a fluttering breeze.

Is there a window?

But when she turned to look at her side, Lyuben was no longer there. And there was no window.

Zola felt incredibly faint. Venera looked sadly at Zola. She hated this so much; overwhelming any kith with knowledge they should not be having. Just as Venera was about to address Zola, she noticed someone approaching them.

“Anar!” Zola recognised the person immediately and ran to him and hugged him. She was surprised at herself for doing so and she was even more surprised that she did not care in doing so. Anar blinked in disbelief and looked at Venera sheepishly.

It took a while for Anar to snap out of his temporary confusion. He looked at Venera and mouthed, “What’s going on?”

Venera sighed in reply.

I Ramble: 7 January 2019

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Ola! So after a poll on my Insta Story, I decided to pursue Japanese Language this year. Dududu duuuuuu! Yas, mon. Gonna do self-study on it because I’ve blown my education budget this year on the programming class I took on Udemy. Kwang kwang kwang.

Atashi wa Nururu Huda desu! Nice to meet you! Hahahaha!

So yeah hoping to have fun with it and most importantly listen out to what my bosses are bitching about in Japanese without them knowing. MUAHAHAHAHA!

Yeah, it feels whimsical but given that I’m actually working for a Japanese company, I might as well learn a thing or two about it.

I find that it is easier to learn reading and writing first before learning vocabulary and grammar, as was the case when I was dabbling in Korean. Korean’s Hangul system really made it easy for me to learn the language, unlike Mandarin and Japanese. Hangul is very systematic in the order of writing each syllable. You must always write a consonant first before writing a vowel. As for Mandarin and Japanese, you really have to memorise the characters because there isn’t that same order of writing a consonant first before a vowel to make up a sound. So looks like it is going to be a lot of memory work for me first.

In other news, I’m trying to drink plain water but it has been a huuuuuge challenge doing so. I kept drinking coffee and tea but never like, plain water. What a bad habit I have all these years. How to have good skin like that? More importantly, that is probably why I don’t have the same amount of energy like everyone else because I leave my body withered and dried up all the time. Like a prune.

I’m not looking forward to getting back to work tomorrow. A part of me wants to continue yet another part of me is screaming leave before something bad happens. I really don’t know. However, I am making the decision of whether to consider switching careers after I receive my 13th month bonus in February. Everybody else in the world got theirs in December. Uniqlo has to be extra and postpone that bonus for CNY instead of Christmas. Well, that is assumption. HAHAHAHA!

But yeah I no longer have the passion I once had for this company. I feel like I sacrificed a lot for it but it will never hold me in the same accord as I did for it. So.

Anyway, that’s that. I just want to end this post by saying how happy I am in being a bit more productive than I usually am during my off day. But boy, do off days pass you by so quickly. And suddenly, it’s back to work once more. Shame.

And Allah is Al-Qaabidh, The Straightener. – MM

I Ramble: 2 January 2019

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

I am still not used to writing or typing 2019. I kept on using ‘2018’. HAHAHA! Stuck in the past for the first few days of January every year. Hehe.

Hi, there! I am nowhere near being fully recovered but mentally I am doing better. A kind soul at work reached out to me and gave me reasons to stay at my current workplace, asking me to be patient, to endure, and just do my best. I’ve learnt well by now that for every 10 things I do right, they get erased by one mistake I make. But you know, I will have to learn to discard that pressure off my soul. Like, I will just have to accept that it’s how things work at my workplace but at the same time reject it from intruding my life like a computer virus, breaking me down and tearing me apart through that initial point of contact. Basically, just ignore work. Like, do my job seriously at work but don’t take it seriously in life. I kinda overexplained, I think, so I hope you guys get what I’m trying to convey.

Anyway, more reasons to celebrate! I finally ordered for myself a FitBit thanks to a considerable discount from my insurance’s initiative, AIA Vitality. Additionally, I invested a bit in bullet journal. Okay, now I am not sure if I have mentioned about bullet journal in my previous post. But I will just regurgitate a bit. I ordered dotted notebooks and bought Sakura Pigma pens in a bid to motivate myself to complete a full year of bullet journalling! Yes, as previously shared, my theme for this year centres around the idea of completion. Seeing things through to the end because we all know that I am so lazy to the point that I never complete anything I started. So let’s stop that bad habit through a fun habit.

Oh, oh! I also signed up with Udemy and bought a web developer course for just S$14.99. They are still having a New Year sale and some courses are actually SkillsFuture Credit eligible if you spent a certain amount of time on it. Yeah, imagine, a $200+ course being sold for just $15. In SGD no less! So go check it out! I almost signed up for an elementary Japanese language course but I decided to forgo it because I have books for it plus it is always more fun to take actual classes and practise the language with other people in person. So I ended up taking a web developer course. I do have a basic skillset of web development but I definitely need to upgrade my native knowledge of it. Plus, I realise, I am actually quite good at web development-related assignments. I think it will help with my e-Commerce busines efforts, Street MOB Clothing. Additionally, after seeing that accidents can happen to you, such as my husband breaking his ankle, I feel that all the more I should equip myself with skills that will allow me to work from home.

So that’s about it for now. I hope everyone found something incredible for their 2019. Enjoyzzz!

And Allah is Al-‘Alim, The All-Knowing One. – MM

I Ramble: 29 December 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Today, I took MC. I hated the feeling so much; of wanting to throw up yet nothing is coming out and it just feels like my body is depleted of all energy. Doesn’t help that the diarrhea kicked in. Even my husband got it but it seems like I got the worse end of the poisonous gas building inside me that got me horribly nauseous. I don’t feel nauseous now after one nausea pill and three solid hours of sleep. But I still feel achy all over and my stomach cramps are still pretty bad. But I’ll just drag myself to work tomorrow. It just sucks la being sick. No one enjoys being sick.

In a bid to feel less sucky about everything in life, I decided to buy my own pack of Sakura Pigma Micron pens. I bought a set previously for my husband when he was warded at the hospital so that he could busy himself with drawing. It’s probably a foolish move of me to buy a similar pack. His is the Manga pack so he has the 005, 01, 05, 08, Black Brush Pen, and White Gel Pen. When I compared mine to his, I pretty much have most of those except the White Gel Pen. Instead, I have the 03 pen. I’m no pro-doodler so I probably won’t be able to discern the differences among the pens. However, I realised that if I were to use the pens a lot, it probably is a good investment to have more. Additionally, I bought the Sakura Pigma Brush Pens. I was conflicted between the Sakura Koi Brush Pens and the Pigma ones but I eventually decided on the Pigma ones since I wasn’t going to do any watercolour styles in my bullet journal. But I might just go back to get it while it is still on sale. Now I regret not getting the pack. HAHAHAHA! Nah, I’ll give it a miss until I’m more in tuned with brush lettering. It’s more of Eleena’s forte than mine.

I have also ordered two A5 Dotted Leatherette Notebooks from Winzige.sg via Shopee, which will be shipped on 3 January 2019. Yeah, I felt foolish about this decision too, especially in getting two instead of one since I have no idea if the papers are thick enough for my Pigma inks. Plus, we all know how lousy my level of commitment is. Well, I bought two because I didn’t want to go through the hassle of having to purchase it again should I run out of pages. Additionally, the notebook is on sale until end of the month. It costs just $8.90 each, which you will agree, is relatively inexpensive compared to the atas notebooks carried by the brick and mortar stores. Wow, I just combined a commomly used Singlish term and an English term rarely used by Singaporeans in one sentence. HAHAHAHA!

I hope I can recover quickly and feel amazing again.

Stay amazing, friends.

And Allah is Al-Fattah, The Supreme Solver. – MM

I Challenge: Boho Berry Challenge – December: Year-End Review (28 December 2018)

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Wowsies. I actually did a challenge and completed it! Yay! It is the Boho Berry December Challenge!

Just click on the picture to know what it is all about. I’ve linked it to Boho Berry’s site regarding the challenge itself. I’m psyched to share my answers to the challenge right here.

Firstly, of course, I would like to thank my husband, Beedin, for supplying me with the notebook in which I did the journalling challenge.

It is just a small pocket notebook with blank pages in them, which proved useful in letting me doodle here and there. Thanks, Bee!

Secondly, I copied the list of topics in the challenge so I didn’t have to refer to my phone each time.

Yeah, I had a little fun handlettering the title but as you can see, I clearly lack spatial awareness. Just crammed the entire title up there on the page.

Next, I proceeded to do sort of a cover for the challenge. Was inspired by Amanda Rachel Lee’s December 2018 Bullet Journal set-up. Have a look at the following video.

Now have a look at my doodle. Bwahahahaha! So far away from her creation.

Then I went ahead with contributing to all of the topics.

1. Introductions

2. 2018 in Three Words

3. Favourite Memory

4. Biggest Accomplishment

5. Biggest Challenge

6. This Year, I…

7. Time Well Spent

8. Successes

9. Could Have Gone Better

10. Money Well Spent

11. Progress Towards Goals

Not going to share a sharp image of the above as I feel those goals are quite personal. But you can see them anyway if you put in the effort. HAHAHAHAHA!

12. New Skills Learnt

13. Breakthrough Moment

14. Smart Decisions

15. Good Habits Formed

16. Bad Habits Broken

17. Unfinished Business

18. Theme/Word for 2019

19. Start Doing

20. Keep Doing

21. Stop Doing

22. Out of My Comfort Zone

At this point of sharing, I believe I became less retrospective and more prospective instead. I think this topic should cover an event in 2018 where I got myself out of my comfort zone. Instead, I recorded what I would like to do in 2019 that would take me out of my comfort zone. But for the record, yeah, going on The Mummy ride for the second time sure was a step out of my comfort zone. All done for love’s sake! Hahahaha!

23. Setting Intentions

24. Something New

25. Self-care

I’ll just continue the sentence here: to…remain soft and smooth all year round.

26. Contribution, 27. Education & 28. Career

Once again, these turned out to be less retrospective than they were supposed to, I feel.

29. 2019 Will Feel Successful If…

30. Top Three 2019 Goals

31. Lessons Learned

There we go! Finally Huda has successfully completed a challenge! Yippy!

I must say that doing this exercise really helped me to have better ideas on how I’d like to plan out my 2019 Bullet Journal. I was really forced to sit and think through some of the topics. You can try it and you will also find that it can be tedious in certain aspects, especially when you are forced to think quite hard on life questions that you would sometimes prefer to leave unanswered. Muahahaha!

I hope everyone reading this would feel drawn to journalling and picking up similar challenges and more importantly, complete them. It would really organise your thoughts better and help you see your life from a different angle and reassess it.

Fun fact: It took me 40 minutes or so to do up this post, mostly in snapping the photos of the entries and positioning them under each heading. I wanted to start on my 2019 Bullet Journal but I’m starting to feel burnt out from just doing this post.

Yes, I have been feeling burnt out from doing little tasks recently. I think my depression is worsening but the reality is, I can never get it checked.

Because no one would believe me? Not sure. But I think it has been so overly glamourised that I much rather not deal with it.

Simple things have become so difficult to do. I take a longer time to do things that can be done in a minute or even a heartbeat.

And I feel so downright tired all the time.

Or maybe it’s just my diarrhea.

Welp.

And Allah is Ar-Razzaq, the Total Provider. – MM

I Ramble: 27 December 2018

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Meowsies.

Where do I even begin.

About ushering in 2019? Summarise 2018 and wrap up the year? About games and gaming? About being ill? About my husband? About life? About journalling? Ai yai yai yai yai. So many things yet so little energy for anything.

Maybe we’ll start with the following photo.

This is me taking a shot of my television, showing a gameplay of The Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End on PS3 by my husband.

Yup, it’s close to eleven PM when we were playing a bit of POTC. I firstly want to express that I enjoy being married to someone who not only shares my hobbies but also engage in them. Best part is that neither of us were overly particular about how each other play. I must admit that I wanted him to save his gameplay on a separate file but then my better judgment got me to realise that hey, I can always replay the level if I ever feel like immersing myself fully in the game or being a completionist through collecting every single item and unlocking every chest and so on. There isn’t any pressing need for me to not share the gameplay anyway. But yes, if I was working on unlocking achievement seriously, I wouldn’t let him have the controller. Hahahaha!

The game was a fortuituos buy. Remember, I wanted to buy the first installment of Uncharted? Well, my husband and I stumbled upon a copy at Games Resort @ Compass One. It costs $30. My husband was telling me to just get it as PS3 games have noticeably dwindled in the shops. But when you’re the sole breadwinner of the family, you will obviously get sensitive about the price. $30, albeit half the price of what PS3 games usually cost, is still a pinch to me. So I decided not to get it from Compass One. Then, just yesterday, I jio-ed mum to go to Tampines Mall to look for a bullet journal. Unfortunately, I couldn’t find the journal I wanted to get but then I remembered there were two game shops at one of the levels. The first shop that I went to didn’t carry Uncharted so I decided to try the adjacent shop, GameXtreme. I found a copy and it costs $25. So I thought I might as well get it because I don’t know when my next trip to Tampines will be and that I probably couldn’t get a better deal anyway. Lo and behold! Just as I wanted to make payment, the dude noticed a sticker on the case and said, “This one three for $10. Go and get two more with a sticker.”

Gnarly! What a deal! So I grabbed POTC and Assasin’s Creed: Brotherhood because nothing else interest me. For POTC, I played it on Wii before and I really enjoyed it so I thought I’d play it again on PS3 instead. Then I simply chose AC because my husband likes the franchise. Wow. It’s so different when you’re a single gamer and when you’re a married gamer, huh? Hahahaha!

So yup! Lucky me bought Uncharted for just 1/3 of $10 instead of $30. That’s like…errr…my fractions is not good. 1/3 of 1/3? Cos you know, it is like three times less of three times less? Oh, bollocks, nevermind me. Point is, it pays to be frugal. And nice. Cos nasty customers won’t get good recommendations. Muahahahaha!

So that’s about yesterday and games and gaming. It’s been a while since I’ve touched my console so I feel the vertigo pretty damn badly this time. My head just fucking hurts all the time now. Sheesh.

Oh, yeah, I mentioned about wanting to get a bullet journal. I know, I can just use any old notebook but I really wanted to emulate the creator of the bullet journal and I think that the dots would be pretty helpful in making markings and estimating the amount of space I need for certain sections of the bullet journal.

So there goes the dream. I know I can just get it online but like I said, I have to be frugal as I am the only person who is holding the money.

But yeah back to gaming, I haven’t started on Uncharted yet ironically enough. Hahahaha! That shows just how much I enjoyed playing POTC on Wii. To be honest, I can’t recall going through the same sort of experience on the PS like I did on the Wii! Let me just check for a moment if my instincts are true. Both versions really feel a whole lot different to me! Or is it I’m demented? Let me just check for a sec.

Oh yes, they are indeed different! Oh, my God! I recall smashing crates a lot more in POTC Wii and spending more time in the sea prison in the beginning chapter. POTC PS3 is like a super condensed version of the movie and I didn’t spend as much time in the beginning chapter.

Oh, wow, wow, wow! Nonetheless, this PS3 version that is new to me, is still enjoyable. It does have that Uncharted feel in terms of having to figure your way out and scaling walls and shimmey-ing ledges. So I figured that POTC is a great warm-up game to gear me up for POTC.

I found out about the versions being different from GameSpot. Man, it has been a while since I’ve been there and blog there. Now, I miss blogging there about games and all that jazz. Really takes me back given just how much I have rambled on about games in this post! Felt like the good old times!

For a proper game post, I should write about the differences I experienced in both versions and whether I enjoy one more than the other. Apparently the Wii version is the same as the PSP and PS2 versions but the PS3 and XBox360 versions are different, with the XBox360’s varying slightly from the PS3’s.

Wow, amazing! We all discovered something new!

Anyway, I feel like I rambled on long enough. Will definitely want to complete the games I started playing on both the PC and on the PS3. Also, will definitely want to get back to bullet journalling and be more life-organised.

I really like to make up my own words sometimes. Just how do you guys live with me? Hahahaha!

And Allah is Al-Wahhab, the Supreme Bestower. – MM