Laylatul Qadr; I Note: 4 May 2021

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Now that Ramadan is coming to a close, you will notice more panda-looking Muslims around. Muslims believe that on one of the odd nights in the last ten nights of Ramadan, is a special blessed night. On that night, a single good deed bears rewards multiple times more than when it was carried out during any other times.

There is a chapter in the Quran that talks about that blessed night: Al-Qadr. It is a very short chapter. It consists of only five verses. It addressed our question as to what exactly is Laylatul Qadr, also known as The Night of Glory, The Night of Power, or The Night of Decree. The Night of Decree seems to be the most apt as the angels and the spirits descend many times with God’s permission to fulfil their task. Throughout that night, there is peace until the dawn breaks. That night is explicitly expressed in the Quran as being better than a thousand months. However, I personally like to call it the Night of Power as it is the night where you have the highest chances of having your prayers answered, which subsequently allows you to be empowered by your prayers. It’s like one of the best chances you can get to be close to the King of the dominions so you definitely want to offer the best worship you can muster to Him.

This is my form of worship for tonight; seeking and sharing knowledge. Worship is not necessarily ritualistic. It takes on many forms but the intention is the same: everything is done in the name of Allah and to solely please Him. Lillahi ta’ala. So even if a surgeon is performing a surgery while his Muslim brother and sisters are performing acts of worship on the prayer mat, his good deed of helping his patient for Allah’s sake is also considered an act of worship, only that it’s done on the operating table instead.

So I hope that those who find themselves in a situation where they can’t perform the usual prayers or touch the Quran, such as a woman in menstruation, will still strive to worship in a different manner such as giving praises to Allah or reading the translation of the Quran.

May Allah accept our deeds and may we get to experience the blessings of Laylatul Qadr.

And Allah is Ar-Rahim, The Most Merciful. -MM

I Ramble: 4 May 2021

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

May the Fourth be with you.

Sorry, I had to get it out of my system! Hahaha!

I came across a video of a girl — who after seeing a video of another girl doing daily self-affirmations — did the same.

It got me thinking about how little confidence girls nowadays have. At first I thought it was silly and I didn’t need to do that because I’m a strong independent woman.

But then I realised that even strong women need to be emotionally assured. We need the affirmation that keeps us going. Like running on a fuel. There is only so much fuel we can generate for ourselves sometimes. So it really helps when others contribute to our fuel tank. Unfortunately, not all of us are lucky to have that. In the end, we only have ourselves.

I’m not going to do self-affirmation on a daily basis. But whenever I decide to do it, I’m going to think of a self-improvement point as well. At a glance, you might think it’s contradicting. But my intention is to use my self-affirmation as a springboard and my self-improvement point as a goal. Rinse and repeat.

Right now, I can’t think of anything because I’m not exactly in the best of head and heart spaces. Which ironically makes the best time to do so. I’m going to give it some thought before I share on my FaceBook Story.

It’s okay. I’m Huda and I always get my shit together.

Right?

And Allah is Ar-Rahman, The Most Gracious. – MM

P.S.

To: God

No matter how long it takes, I am going to remember all 99 names of You. Because You are the only one who can really love me in my best and worst.

I Ramble: 3 May 2021

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

It’s amazing just how time passes by. Ramadan is coming to a close soon and I feel like I haven’t done enough.

I also feel burdened by the lack of progress with regards to the state of my house.

Thanks to my flu, I have been getting more rest. But that meant I haven’t done any cleaning.

Sometimes, I feel very stressed out. I wish my husband could have taken on a more active role in the management of the house. But to be honest, he is doing more than me by settling the laundry and dishwashing, things I dread to do.

So is it fair? Sometimes, I don’t know. Most times, I wish we could function more as a team. I always hate it when he pushes things off instead of facing them head on. Maybe I’m impatient. But after close to three years, that patience is whittling down.

I don’t know. I’m tired of not knowing and I’m even more tired of doing things alone.

But I also am tired of complaining so hopefully this blog post helps me to let off some steam and feel refreshed.

At the end of the day, I must remember my duties to God, my family, and my community.

I cannot simply serve myself.

Seriously, I cannot wait to be fully free.

But earning that freedom is going to take a lot of hard work and a whole lot more patience than I have in my reserves.

I can only pray for more of His Kindness. Whichever is the course set for me, I will need to tread without losing my religion and without compromising my morals.

Life in the 21st century is definitely a struggle.

I am fighting so many unseen demons everyday. They come in from so many directions. They whispered so many things.

I hope I can hold on strongly to The Book. It is the only tangible thing that connects me to God.

The end game is to return to Him in the best of circumstances.

And Allah is All-Knowing. – MM