I Ramble: 20 August 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

I am working at 7.30am today but it is 1.54am right now and I am so wode awake. I am going to get in trouble at this sleepless rate!

I think I got too pumped for life and now I’m overly energised when I should be resting for work later.

Gyabon.

Anyway, since I am up but refusing to leave my bed, I am going to make lists. Ha!

Things I have to do:

1. SMC proposal to our supplier. Was supposed to get this done yesterday but I was simply too out of it. Yikes.

2. Khairi’s preloved stall coordination. Was suppose to have this sorted out yesterday as well with help from le fiance but he was too busy and I was too weak. Yikes.

3. SMC meeting minutes for previous meeting last last Saturday morning, 12/8. Definitely overdue. Yikes.

4. Memorise Heattech product knowledge for promotion at work. Was supposed to have memorised it by the first week of August! But now is the second last of August liao. Yikes.

5. Volunteer for 6-3-6 at work for promotion. Was supposed to have done this in the second week! Yikes.

6. Memorise Fast Retailing Group Mission for promotion at work. Was supposed to have done this last week too! Yikes.

7. Have F/W Coordination Knowledge for promotion at work. Haiyo, this one also supposed to be done by last week!

8. Stockroom Management and Stocktake…I have no idea what this is about but I need to get those done by this week so I will need to find out soon at work.

9. Review the things I need to achieve in order to get confirmation at work.

Who knew working for Uniqlo Orchard Central can be extremely demanding eh?

Now do you know why I am always so exhausted from working besides the physical nature of the job? Hahaha!

Good game.

Okay, now I feel sleepy already.

Okay, now I feel super hungry and sleepy.

Gyabon.

Some orders of business:

I know tht I would like to set aside my Fridays as SMC business days. Although I may not be able to attend meetings or run errands on all Fridays due to work, I’ll be putting in more effort into the business on that designated day, be it online promotion, recruitment, or designing? I think it is about time I try my hand at it. If I can’t use Photoshop, I can always sketch out my ideas and let either Danial or le fiance translate the idea into psd for printing. So no excuses there.

I would also like to dedicate my Sundays for my religion. Be it reading the Quran or Islamic books or watching lecture videos. It’s like going to church on Sundays, isn’t it? Hahaha! There’s also the Sunday madrasah concept to relate to, you know. Hahaha!

I would like to designate Mondays for Metropolitan Muslimah. Easy to remember. MMM.

Tuesdays would be for Dry Magnum, the cover band I’m singing for. The guys have been wanting to jam but due to the financial situation of le fiance and I, we have been putting it off but I think I should start practising already. They want to play new songs I do not know of too.

Wednesday is for my own band with le fiance, Rubber Bandits. We don’t the financial luxury but we still have our talent to put to good use. In fact, when I sang to le fiance the most recent song I wrote (I forgot the title already lol), he straightaway got the melody down with his electric guitar and shared the recording with me. So we both could definitely do something for our humble band.

Thursdays will be Reading Day until I have finished reading 28 books as challenged.

Saturdays will be lepak days. A girl needs her rest and not think or do anything. Even if she has to work, she will take it easy.

Sunday: Islamic Studies

Monday: Metropolitan Muslimah

Tuesday: Dry Magnum

Wednesday: Rubber Bandits

Thursday: Reading Day

Friday: SMC

Saturday: Super Santai Day (Santai in Malay means relax)

It’s 2.34am now. Shit. Hahahaha!

And Allah is Al-Muqit, the Nourisher. – MM

I Ramble: 19 August 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

I checked out of life for a little bit. I don’t know if it was the grief over Chester, if it was my depression, which I have now understood to be one of my pre-menstrual symptoms unfortunately, or if it was my fatigue from working at Uniqlo Orchard Central for the past month.

It’s really hard to be a woman, especially when you don’t really have the control over your biological workings. I really want to be able to be hyped and pumped and energetic all the time but my body is not up to speed with my desires. I also require a lot of time to recover from any physical exertions or ailments. As if that is not bad enough, when I’m having my monthly cycle, it sets me back even more.

But after resting today on my off day, I’m feeling better and ready to check back into life.

And le fiance really played a huge part in understanding me wholly, knowing who and how I am as a person and those biological factors that can really mess me up a lot, which affected us a bit. His patience is really important and I’m glad that he loves me with all of his love and patience. I think the patience part is what has been missing in a lot of the guys I’ve come across. So Alhamdulillah for a lover like him. 🙂

I think hearing Chester’s voice will still hurt a little bit. Linkin Park was quite a huge part of my life after all. But I don’t expect anyone to understand this.

But, let’s get on with life now.

This is 10% luck
20% skill
15% concentrated power of will
5% pleasure
50% pain
And a 100% reason to remember the name

Meanwhile I just grip my mic
And hope me and my team make it through alright
Because say what you will, and say what you might
But don’t ignore who it’s for at the end of the night

And Allah is Al-Hafiz, the Preserver, the Protector. – MM

I Relate: 16 August 2017

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I’m done here?
So, if you’re asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don’t be afraid
I’ve taken my beating
I’ve shared what I’ve made
I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have you
So, if you’re asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you’ve learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you’ve learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are
I can’t be who you are

I Ramble: 13 August 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

I’m making a lot of mistakes at work but I’m grateful that these mistakes are happening during my learning curve. Can you imagine if I were to make grave errors as a senior? That would suck monkey balls. So if anything, I’m just doing my best to be a sponge.

As for SMC, a lot of things needed to be done. Unfortunately, le fiance and I were disappointed by freehosting.com as a prospective web host. Supposedly, you can sign up for free. However, it turns out, you needed to buy a domain name that will last for a year and from thereon, you will charged for it yearly.

I’m hoping my finances will be more stabilised by October so I can invest in the yearly subscription of the web hosting. It will be great for SMC. I need to clear the wedding payment by early next month with my August pay… $2k in total so that pretty much uses up all of my pay. :/

Hais. I still have many personal debts to settle.

I better go sleep now, it’s 12:30am, and save the thinking for the morning. More productive that way.

And Allah is Al-Kabir, the Great. – MM

I Ramble: 11 August 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Merciful, the All-Compassionate.

I finally have some sort of energy to blog…but I’m in the train on the way to work as I type this. Hahaha!

All thanks to la Mama for buying me new comfy shoes! Wheee! I don’t feel it as bad as I have for the past three weeks. Yay!

Remember my previous post when I shared about my listlessness? Well, turns out, right after writing that post, le fiance completed the order form for SMC. Then I felt bad so I decided to finalise it and yeah. Now you can order through the SMC website already. 🙂

Then after that, la Mama got me out of the house to buy my shoes. So I only managed to publish my post like 5 minutes before midnight that day. Hahaha!

An uneventful day became an eventful day after all. Props to my man for knowing how to make me do stuff without actually telling me to do so. Hahaha!

I seriously think he knows how to handle me best in whatever state I am in.

Before I sign off, I just want to share a bit of rap I wrote after coming across MOE’s recruitment ads. Lol. I can roll eyes many many times but I chose to rap instead hahahaha.

“Find your calling at MOE”

But sir, MOE don’t wanna call me

Cos sir, you made it plain as can be

I ain’t sh– without your local degree

How many times you gotta the salt the wound

Throw it right in my face, perpetuating old goons

But well, we all know it’s more bane than boon

Them devils, preying on us with their fork and spoon

And Allah is Ar-Rahman, the All-Compassionate. – MM

I Ramble: 9 August 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

I wasted at least 12 hours of my day off sleeping. And now I’m wasting another 6 hours of my day stoning in front of the computer.

I’ve been yawning away as well.

I feel so lethargic.

I really have no idea how to manage my fatigue thus far.

Then how sia next year when I’m married?

When I have kids?

And my business how?

@_@

God help me.

And Allah is Al-Ali, the Extremely Exalted. – MM

I Ramble: 6 August 2017

In the name of Allah, the All-Compassionate, the All-Merciful.

Heyooo there!

So, I survived my dastardly long work week with a jump shift in the middle of it!

Well done, Huda!

Yup, I decided that my new workplace should address me as Huda because nobody is called ‘Huda’ there. Hahaha!

I received very encouraging feedback about my work performance throughout the week, which is very nice! ^_^

I’m really enjoying the vibes on level 1 of my workplace, where I’m situated at. Level 2’s vibes ain’t for me and to a certain extent, I think I simply invoke frustration in the superiors there. So I am really grateful to be in an environment that suits me. Don’t get me wrong; level 1 superiors are still firm and uphold standards but I find that they have more of the human touch.

Just don’t take advantage of their kindness.

And they emphasised on the importance of each and every individual putting in 100% because they find it unfair that the reliable ones are loaded with more work in order to pull the weight of those who only put in 50%.

That was one of my biggest issues with my previous workplace. The reliable ones get piled with more and more work while those who kept saying “I don’t know” and “I don’t want” always get away with it and earn the same Staff Appraisal Review grade as those who put in the shift.

So to have that kind of mentality at my new workplace… is very much welcomed for me.

I know I said I’d like to keep up my writing consistency but hey man, working long hours while standing throughout and commuting while standing throughout does take a toll on one’s body.

Even my mom got to witness how swollen my feet were this morning. I gave up and tried using the Watsons’ feet hydrotherapy machine thingy but my feet still hurt a bunch right now as I’m typing this at 7.30pm plus.

Hais.

Anyway, I begged the family to buy me a comfy pair of covered black shoes for my birthday this month. Trololol. I cannot take it anymore!

I am turning 28 on the 25th August. I don’t quite know what to feel about it because I’ve been wanting to completely ignore it…because I didn’t really see the cause of celebration for it.

However, right now, since I am in a good headspace and heartspace, I feel like having a ’28’ challenge.

Let’s just call it The 28 challenge. Hahaha! How creative! Basically, 28 things I want to do as a 28-year-old before I turn 29. HAHAHA!

The 28

  1. Read 28 books out of the ones listed in the 2017 Reading Challenge by POPSUGAR.
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  2. Create 28 designs for Street MOB Clothing.
  3. Write 28 songs for Rubber Bandits.
  4. Achieve 28 sales for Street MOB Clothing.
  5. Write 28 articles for publications.
  6. Watch 28 films.
  7. Watch 28 television series.
  8. Listen to 28 songs I have never heard before.
  9. Exercise for 28 days.
  10. Go on 28 documented dates with le fiance.
  11. Wish 28 people a ‘Happy Birthday’.
  12. Write 28 letters to le fiance.
  13. Draw 28 portraits.
  14. Create 28 hand-lettering works.
  15. Present a photography collection of 28 photographs.
  16. Present a fashion collection of 28 looks.
  17. Produce 28 vlogs.
  18. Cook 28 dishes.
  19. Bake 28 pastries.
  20. Achieve $28 in savings.
  21. Visit 28 cafes.
  22. Watch 28 music videos I have never watched before.
  23. Watch 28 documentaries.
  24. Learn 28 new words in Bahasa Indonesia, Mandarin, and Tagalog respectively.
  25. Learn 28 new phrases in Bahasa Indonesia, Mandarin, and Tagalog respectively.
  26. Learn 28 new sentences in Bahasa Indonesia, Mandarin, and Tagalog respectively.
  27. Memorise 28 verses of the Quran and the meanings attached.
  28. Sing and record 28 covers.

There we go! Now that should be fun!

And Allah is Ash-Shakur, the Grateful. – MM