In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.
Whatever I set out to do today, in the end I didn’t achieve them. Whaaaaaa….
Hais. Hay naku. I think I am slowly turning more pinay recently.
It is quite a change of scene… to entertain my lonesome thoughts on lonely nights like this rather than entertaining some guy whom I am not even sure if he likes me in a less platonic way. However, I do not feel despair and neither should you feel despair for me too, dear readers. I was washing the dishes after loading my clothes into the washing machine last night around midnight. It did feel like I had a preview of a solitary life, you know, should all my siblings be blissfully married and my parents peacefully passed on (touch wood many many). It did feel quite lonesome but at the same time quite empowering. I am not bothered by anyone and I do not have to take care of anyone except for myself.
So yeah, I am not afraid nor worried about living alone. I think when the need comes, I will pick up cooking naturally.
I secretly want to kickstart a home pantry project. Like clean up the counter and spaces beside the fridge and decorate it according to my taste and maybe fill up the cabinets with pantry shindigs of my taste as well. Was thinking of a New York concept. You know, those artsy jazz bars feel. Hmm… that will be quite a project, which needs time and capital.
For the first time ever in my life, I actually have quite a lot of leave left, which I am planning to bring over to next year so I can be in Manila, Philippines with Lyra for her wedding! I was thinking of staying there for longer than a few days… maybe a week. Hence, I have been trying to learn Tagalog lately. Muahahaha. It is quite easy, given how similar it is to Malay. Hopefully, by next year, I can have decent Tagalog listening comprehension, speaking, and reading skills. So this is a project by itself, which is why I don’t feel like I can embark on that pantry project.
Or maybe I need a productivity tool that can help me sort out those things… kind of like a timeline, which allows me to see deadlines and chart the sub-tasks I need to complete by a certain time in order to achieve the ultimate goal and it deadline. If you have any recommendations, feel free to let me know be it paper-and-pen or in the form of an app. I just need something really comprehensive because look at me and my plans… we’re going nowhere as I sometimes have absolutely no idea where to start or how to start!
This is what happens when you are passionate about just about everything under the sun… well we all know how much I loathe cooking… but it looks like that will change soon… because I have a great motivator in A! 😀
Well, actually there is something that has been bothering me a bit… no, nothing to do with my romantic life or lackthere of. We can safely agree that that aspect of my life has been frozen in some cyrogenic pod in my brain, yeah? It’s… still a personal issue but… hmm… I think I will spill the beans much later on… for now, I will be living with it for a bit so if you see me walking around with a cloud over my head, just be understanding, okay? Thank you.
And yeah, this song is a serious earworm for me right now.
And Allah is Knower of all things. – MM