I Ramble: 17 August 2016

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.

I am slowly but surely changing, just when I thought I am condemned to be a beast for the rest of my life.

You know how my silent depression can go on days for end. Well, it seems like I managed to keep it to just yesterday. I don’t feel all moody right now. I feel alright. I am still stressed but I don’t feel like keeping to myself all the time.

I guess what made the difference was my decision to reply A’s texts. It took me about four hours maybe before I felt bad about not replying him and decided to push myself to do so.

Well, it was nice to not have someone throwing the if-this-is-your-passion-then-you-should-be-blahblahblah lecture into my face. I know A also has that in his locker but hey, girl’s having a bad day. She just needs some sympathy — if you can’t afford empathy — so give it to her and she will be alright already.

_-*-_

Well, I wrote the above when my day began and I am writing now when my day has ended. Well, I was quite cranky but more smiley than yesterday. Although I am feeling the heat from work, I at least don’t feel like digging a hole and staying in there. I feel somewhat focused because I know what I need to do and when to get them done. I will finally be able to catch a little breather in the afternoon tomorrow.

For now, I would like to exhale a long sigh after a looong day.

Haisssss…..

Only He knows and He is the Knower of all things. – MM

Published by Baeda

Born 1989. Female. Metropolitan Muslimah. Songstress. Teacher in the Early Childhood Care and Education sector in Singapore. Gooner since the signing of Mesut Özil on 2 September 2013. We won two back-to-back FA Cups since. Made my first trip to the Emirates on 10 May 2015 followed by my first home game against Swansea City on 11 May 2015, which we lost 0-1.

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