In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.
As expected, I eventually talked to A about stuff and well, he was amused really that for someone who only had one boyfriend and two crushes, I seemed to be in a deeper emotional pool than someone with so many relationships and flings that you can no longer count with your fingers. Hahaha! Trust him to put things into perspective.
Well, you cannot talk to people who have no interest in listening and I am now learning to not waste so much time on such people. If anything, it vindicates my decision to walk away from him. I don’t owe him a living anyway. It also affirms the fact that he takes out his anger towards other people on me. It has been and probably always will be.
I expressed that to A and he made me think about how I allowed myself to be treated like a piece of property. I think I will still be that accommodating person but I will try to be more aware of just how much allowance I should make.
It’s a little sad and I believe it has affected me quite a bit emotionally that it made me ill on top of my stress with the school’s production.
Well, whatever. Rust in Pisces.
And He is Knower of all things. – MM
Metropolitan Muslimah 