In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.
I have been quite lacklustre lately. Even my colleagues are feeling very bothered by how ‘off’ I appear to them.
I just really need a long mental and physical break. Like now. But I can’t because such is working life. It’s just 2pm now and I have to hang on for another 5 hours and 4 days of work this week. I can’t wait for the start of my long break, which is this Sunday.
Sometimes it is not about me not having the passion to charge on. I’m just like a cellphone working on 2% battery but expected to work like I’m on at least 60%. I’m already stretching all of my resources to the best of my abilities. And having my period right now is not helping me with my energy levels. What more with the pain and discomfort.
Le sighs. Never mind, I feel better already from ranting. But I gotta admit I have also been walking around with a dark cloud over my head regarding my health.
I think the best way to combat my unhappiness for now is to just keep my mind focused on a task at work and sleeping at 10pm at home. Honestly, it is a struggle to fall asleep early when you reach home at around 8pm. By the time you are settled, it is already 9pm and you only have an hour to do your routine chores and before you know it, it is 10pm already. So basically you barely have time for yourself or for you to do the leisurely activities you have been looking forward to do.
I think that also contributes to my low energy levels. I don’t feel well-rested.
BUT.
After letting all of those out, I’m starting to feel the positivity creeping in.
I just remembered what my dad and brother said to me last night regarding my new shift of 10am to 7pm; that I am entering the workplace like a CEO or a boss. Privilege to enter late. Hahahaha!
I guess a change of mindset is in order. Instead of trudging on everyday for the remaining days of work before my long hol, I should enjoy strolling in like a boss. Yeah, I am the female boss. Hehe!
Female boss coming in all ready to focus on one task at a time. It is a good way to lower my stress and anxiety levels.
Next one is to address my health concerns. I believe I have neglected myself long enough. Even Nora is reminding me to take action against my acne. So as a good substitute to my previous leisurely activities, I shall now be girly girly and pamper myself before sleeping. I think my eyes are also screaming for cucumbers. While waiting for the mask essence to seep into my pores, I might as well chill to some music.
Hmm, I am feeling better and better by the second.
Okay, let’s stick to the plans above. Remember: Female boss.
And He is Knower of all things. – MM
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