In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

I find myself lost and found myself here. I thought I can express easily what I’m feeling now. But the words just slipped away.

So, mood music — I think the song sends the vibes better than I can construct sentences to describe them feels.

About the upstairs neighbours? Well, I have been praying for them to be permanently silenced, to be honest, so that whoever lives in this house may live peacefully. Can you imagine an elderly couple moving in here only to be woken up rudely with loud noises? It’s not right. Especially not during the night when you’re supposed to be in bed.

Oh, God, there are a lot of things to update here. I did more than I thought I would do.

Still, it never feels like what I’ve done is enough.

Maybe it’s because I still don’t know what I want. How do you set out to achieve something you don’t even know you want?

And Allah is Al-Hayy, The Living. – MM