In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.
I don’t know if I was experiencing early signs of pregnancy with my hormonal rage last Monday and spotting last few days. But I think I was just experiencing weird symptoms at the end of my monthly cycle. So no baby for us yet! I was asked again to produce an heir but too bad! I am only what Allah gives me.
Okay so I’m actually typing this in the MRT on the way to work to review NH21. Let’s pull it up again:
I’m staying quite on course with my Quran reading with the exception of reciting Yasiin. I still haven’t managed to start that. I’m also quite on track with gathering Islamic knowledge via YouTube.
But I’m failing to start on all other goals in the other aspects, with the exception of putting in some effort for SG.
Okay, after reviewing, I’m supposed to come up with an action plan to be able to start working on the goals I have failed to kickstart.
To be honest, the reasons why I haven’t been able to start on most goals, is due to how weirdly dynamic my life is.
Like last Tuesday evening, my sister, Hazwanni, texted me asking if I could book a dental appointment for Umi. I’m the type of person who doesn’t ask why most times so I just replied that I would book later that night as I was still working. But then I was finishing up the transfer-out for the return of winter items to the warehouse that I ended as late as 10.30pm. So I completely forgot all about that. Then last Wednesday evening, my sister texted me again saying she visited the GP but my sister didn’t feel she would take the medicine prescribed for her.
Since I had worked overtime the day before, I decided to clock out earlier that day and take her to see my dentist friend, Liju. She had seen him before for her toothache and she was comfortable with him. I rushed to my Tampines home, prayed, and then off we went to the clinic. Thankfully, it wasn’t anything too serious but she needed to take care of her gums. She has a bit of a gum disease. So cleaning every six months is in order. I will need to check in with Umi and the clinic again in July then.
We got home and I finally get to eat dinner. Was starving by then because I only had brunch at noon earlier at The Centrepoint’s Kopi & Tarts. We reached home close to 10pm. So you can imagine how hungry I was.
Over dinner, my sister, Hidayah, gleefully tried to get me to sleep over. I video called A and he approved. So I ended up crashing at Tampines.
So you see, when things like that happen, it just throws you off track from your plans but that’s alright. At the end of the day, I’m happy to be doing something productive.
I do wish I have more income so I can go back to giving my mum $500 a month. I was able to do that when I was earning $3000 a month as a preschool teacher. Now I wish to achieve that plus giving my dad $500 as well. But this is hard for me to do as the primary breadwinner for my own little family and I bring home less than $2000 a month.
Okay, so that aside, let’s talk about action plan.
Basically, the action plan is to make up for the things I missed out on effective immediately. For example, tonight, instead of reciting Waqiah, I should recite Yaasin instead.
I know I set a to-do list for this entire week in the previous post and I have been religiously updating it, striking off tasks I have done and putting comments in bold for previous tasks I have not achieved. But I also can’t put my NH21 goals in the backseat. Most of the goals are meant to be good habits after all. I can’t develop them if I don’t make myself do them on top of all other things.
Tough, eh? A has also recently gotten back into playing PUBG and he pleaded to play with me yesterday. So I expect he would want me to play with him for some time, until he gets bored of it at least. So that definitely has to be on the daily agenda as well.
I seriously believe A is really lucky to have me as a wife now. Hahaha! I mean, it is quite precious to have your partner share the same interests and engage in the activities you both enjoy as a couple. Unfortunately, he’s unlucky in terms of me being a lousy gamer. Sorry, A!
So yeah. I’m just trying to catch up on a lot of things at this point. I hope I’m able to do so.
And Allah knows best. – MM