But Here I Go; I Ramble: 15 August 2021

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

It is always very tiresome when you find yourself struggling alone.

But that is essentially how life naturally pans out. Even in a crowd, you find yourself lonelier than ever sometimes. Because they do not fight your battles and because they see the perfect sides of your shoes but not your worn out soles. Sometimes the person you are closest to can be the most distant. And that slices through your heart. But because you are used to that pain, you learnt not to show it anymore. And because you are used to struggling alone, the pain becomes just another challenge to overcome.

I could not get up at 4am today. I think I exhausted myself from work and maybe from the excitement of a wonderful surprise I received from my friends! I love surprises!!! I am always happy to receive surprises and gifts!

They gave me a yellow smiley ukulele and cool keychain to attach to my ukulele bag! Ahhhh!!!! Wunderbar!!!!

I feel right at home sitting in between them last night when they came over to visit. I feel very very very loved. It feels like a dream.

I learnt how to play a nursery rhyme on the ukulele after they left. And shared with them an audio recording of it. Hahaha!

How do people know me better than I know myself? But I am always aloof and clueless when it comes to knowing their likes and dislikes. I need to improve on this.

Thank you so much, my beautiful band of brothers. I am more inspired to do more music and as your singer, I will write more songs with the help of your smiley ukulele!

And Allah is The All-Knowing. – MM

Author: Baeda

Born 1989. Female. Metropolitan Muslimah. Songstress. Teacher in the Early Childhood Care and Education sector in Singapore. Gooner since the signing of Mesut Özil on 2 September 2013. We won two back-to-back FA Cups since. Made my first trip to the Emirates on 10 May 2015 followed by my first home game against Swansea City on 11 May 2015, which we lost 0-1.

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