Tired But Cannot Sleep; I Ramble 25 September 2021

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

God, I have so many bosses now.

Hello, there! It is me typing away at an ungodly hour and being extremely conscious of not using contractions because my boss hates it. He does not read this blog though so I do not know why I even bother. Practice makes perfect?

I have no idea what I just typed but with that said, this is what you get from me when I am super tired. I just needed to do something in trying to make me fall asleep and I think trying to flesh out a blog post might just do the trick. Do you guys feel this way sometimes?

I will be working alone today so that gives me a little freedom in trying to accomplish as many tasks as possible. There is a whole lot of backlog to get through and we will definitely only be busier from now on.

I really feel like I need to evolve. I cannot just sit in this very comfortable position of doing things the way I want to. I need to demand people to work with me or work on things together with me. I really hate doing that because it is exhausting. Unfortunately, that seems to be the culture here. Just last Thursday, my ears picked up on a piece of conversation held between other colleagues, “Act blur, live longer”.

My immediate reaction to that was chills. My boss had just mentioned that to me the last time we met. And then I was hearing it from colleagues? That means it is real, right? The mindset is being lived.

And then it just made a lot of sense when I reflect on the work environment.

That mindset is now my pet peeve.

I will not allow myself to adopt it.

It is 2am now. This post has been an absolute rubbish but maybe it has made me rethink some things.

And Allah is always fair. – MM

Author: Baeda

Born 1989. Female. Metropolitan Muslimah. Songstress. Teacher in the Early Childhood Care and Education sector in Singapore. Gooner since the signing of Mesut Özil on 2 September 2013. We won two back-to-back FA Cups since. Made my first trip to the Emirates on 10 May 2015 followed by my first home game against Swansea City on 11 May 2015, which we lost 0-1.

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