In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.
I wrote this post while listening to some jazz piano. If you would like some background music playing while reading this, press play:
I realised I became quite grumpy at work. I do not enjoy being that way as I feel like it chips away at the essence of myself. Like I start to lose a little bit of myself. It is not healthy and I do worry if it is due to an overwhelming work load but at the same time, going through menstruation could also have implicated my moods. Really not easy being a girl, eh?
My friend and I had a discussion on the young people today and how they have everything to their favour in life but do not utilise those blessings well. Instead, they look for trouble and complicate their lives unneccessarily. They even spit back at the providers of their abundance. My friend and I attributed such attitudes in life to a lack of passion. Some of these kids, man, they really should get a hobby. Your world expands so much more when you immerse yourself in a passion.
I envy those who have a sole passion that they dedicate their lives to because it means they are masters of their trades. Whereas for people like me with so many passions, we could never really truly specialise in one thing. Instead, we are quite scattered about, happily learning everything under the sun that sparks interest in us.
Jack of all trades, master of none.
It is not neccessarily a bad thing because it means we are able to relate to so many people. We are more of the explorers in this world.
In whichever way we are blessed, we should continue pursuing our passions. I am not exactly passionate about work but I enjoy putting in a great shift. That is what I am passionate about: making sure I do my best in a job I am entrusted in.
So a passion does not neccessarily have to be an activity or a skill. It can be an aptitude, it can be an approach, and it can even be a personal value.
The world is so vast, guys. So vast.
Give yourself a chance at picking up something new.
For example, I never thought I would be growing greens at home. Suddenly, I met a guy who specialises in growing greens and suddenly, I find myself growing greens.
What a wonderful world, eh?
Today, I decided to give myself some time to churn out a better post than the one I did previously. I am starting to learn the importance of carving out time daily in order to do the things I love. My concern lies in the well-being of my body though. I feel like I am really working it very hard whenever I am at work. I know this because I keep looking forward to my time off from work. It can feel like a huge mental load is taken from me when I am not on the clock. Unfortunately, I sometimes sabotage that blissful state when my mind is still buzzing from the adrenaline of powering through work. If not, it might be others who approached me outside hours on a work matter.
Sighs. If I do not keep this in check, it may spiral out into other areas of my life. It might create unneccessary expectations out of the people I am working with.
It is gets pretty draining just thinking about all of these things.
Alrighty, I am going to stop writing and just do nothing for a bit. I need to recharge.
May Allah ease my affairs and may He draw me closer to Him. – MM
Metropolitan Muslimah 