In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.
I received a wake up call last Friday night during my funeral course. The Prophet (pbuh) had mentioned that when we die, we will die with the one we like the most during our lifetime.
For example, if we idolise a celebrity, when we are about to die, we may sing the celebrity’s favourite song with our final breath.
Needless to say, if we enjoy reading the Quran, we may recite our favourite verses with our final breath. What a way to die. I want that.
So that made rethink the current state I am in. I am constantly thinking about work. Every time I am supposed to rest, my mind starts to whisper, “We can rest after we do this one thing”. I realised as well I have neglected my prayers completely at work. I find it very hard to sneak away to pray, always consumed in the thought of lack of time to complete a task.
That is when I realised my strategy has been wrong. I have set silent alarms on my Fitbit as reminders for me to pray but I had set them later than ideal. I would be in the middle of a task, which I could not complete in 5 minutes so by the time I had wrapped things up, it was time for another prayer. And then I would move onto another task instead of praying, thinking I would still have to time to make it for that prayer. And then it is just a vicious cycle.
So I have to end that vicious cycle. End of story.
And Allah is the best. – MM