In the name of Allah, The Beneficent, The Merciful.
I am still getting used to writing/typing 2022 instead of 2021. It will take some adjusting to.
Same thing for my 2022 goals. A lot of them, I feel, involve changing bad habits, which consequentially changes my lifestyle.
The goals look easy to achieve on paper but whenever lifestyle changes are involved, they are always much harder to execute. Because you gotta get unstuck from your old ways, which you have become very, very, very comfortable with.
Sighs. Four days from my last blog post when I had promised myself to blog daily here. Four days of not achieving any of the goals set for me.
I feel scattered. Maybe I should begin with one goal to focus on first.
Ooh! I have just realised that I uploaded my goals with the wrong year on it on my previous post! See, still not used to 2022.
So here is the correct one.
Lol.
Clearly, I am too tired already. And it has only been a week since the new year has started.
Okay, let’s pick something to focus on and for me to track: Answer Allah’s calls.
I struggle with my five daily prayers a lot because I am so chained to my long-hour work shift so I usually managed only two daily prayers, Subuh and Isyak, at best on my work days. It is definitely unhealthy and I am starting to feel the barakah (blessings) leaving me. Sometimes, I would get so tired that I could not get up for Subuh and sometimes I would get so tired that I crashed on the bed before I could manage Isyak.
I think I need to do a visual tracking so that I can see for myself the efforts I am making towards securing my position in Heaven.
Each leaf represents a prayer performed. On my off days, the five daily prayers are done but on my working days, see how scarce the leaves are? And I work five days a week. Imagine the lost opportunities for blessings. Imagine the littleness of my deeds in comparison to the average Muslim who performs his prayers without fail. Imagine meeting my Maker with only so little to show to Him in front of so many other souls on the Day of Resurrection. Imagine how much more beautiful my tree will be if I am able to add on supplementary prayers.
So yeah, I think this state of my life deserves some attention now.
And Allah is Al-Quddus, The Most Sacred. – MM
Metropolitan Muslimah 