In the name of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.
Look at the gap between my last post and this one; so many weeks! In that so many weeks, I was caught in a whirlwind of financial losses while trying to find a way to gain. I am under a lot of stress because I do not know if I can keep going at the rate that our savings are dwindling.
My January prayer tree is so bald. It shows the disconnection between myself and my Maker. Nothing is worse than that.
I guess my inability to pray five times a day translated into the dire situation I am in.
There is just no barakah (blessings) for me. My life is not bountiful because I do not meet my Maker in prayer enough. The lesser the prayers, the lesser the opportunities to seek help from Him.
I have to fight a lot of things in order to change my life.
Changing my life will be the story of the year.
I have been trying to wake up at 5am but I have been hitting the snooze button. Today, I woke up at 5am because my alarm went off but my handphone fell off my bed and I cannot reach it unless my husband wakes up so I can move the bed. It took me a while before I get myself out of bed but I finally did and for the first time this year, I get to pray Tahajud.
And that is how I am typing away right now because I finally have the time and space to create a blog post.
The 5am club is a wonderful club and I hope I get to stay in it.
Additionally, I hope to keep up with my prayers from today onwards, given this great head start that Allah has given me.
And Allah is Al-‘Aziz, The All Mighty. – MM