In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.
For the first time ever in my life, I was early by an hour.
Hahahaha! All thanks to Nora la!!! Horrible. Forced me to leave my house so early. Ish.
Hmm… I wanted to blog about a lot of things… but I have forgotten! Oh no.
A sounded really tired on WhatsApp yesterday. What touched me was that he made an effort to reply to my messages regardless. In the end, we pretty much called it a night. All I did was to send him off nicely and he was touched by my concern.
Ah good la. Touch each other’s hearts. Hahaha!
But nope, that wasn’t what I wanted to blog about but that was the only thing I had in mind. Hmmm…
Maybe it has something to do about our friendship that I wanted to share.
I told him that our friendship lasted longer than my relationship. Hahaha!
My relationship barely lasted a month. Hahaha! He was shocked to know that. Our friendship on the other hand, has been going on for about two months now. He said it felt more like we have known each other for 20 years!
Pretty true. I came to know a lot about him in these two months as though I have known at least 20 years of his life’s events and milestones. I think he is somewhat still waiting for me to open up to him. I think he does look forward to my texts and he wants to know more about me but given the type of person I am and what I went through, I just learnt to clam up a lot about myself, particularly my feelings and thoughts, well except when I am blogging or writing in my diary. He mentioned to me before that he has been waiting outside my door under the rain or shine after knocking on it many times. Well, he put it very poetically like that in Malay. Haha! I find that interesting though because to be honest, I am not exactly sure just how much should I talk to him. As a friend, I really do not want to be a bother to him because after all, I am just a friend, right? At the same time, he has never explicitly told me that he simply regard me as just a younger sister. So hence my conundrum. Plus he told me before that he is the type of person who gets restless when someone persistently bugs him. So how? Hahaha!
Well, there was quite a heavy matter perturbing my thoughts. At first thought, I wanted to tell A about it but I felt I would just bother him. However, it bugged me too much that I ended up telling him about it.
His reaction? He thanked me for sharing it with him.
So… I supposed what he wants is to feel that I can go to him whenever and for whatever, because that would really reflect the comfort levels of our friendship. He even told me directly that I should nevet feel alone or lonely because he is there for me.
How sweet is that? What a great friend. I am truly thankful to Him and to him for this friendship.
You know, I usually stalk people but for A, I really didn’t bother to. Okay, maybe more like I never really felt the need to because he himself shared so many things with me and he is so open about himself with me.
He, in turn, doesn’t stalk my blog and SNS-es either.
Not that I would mind though. He is one of my greatest supporters anyway! ^_^v
But yeah, this guy has successfully repaired my confidence that other guys have damaged.
All within two months.
Thank you so much, my minion aeronautical captain. You also successfully turned a ramble post into a gratitude post.
And Allah is Knower of all things. – MM