In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.
It has been, what, many months before I break my silence here. I have been working all the time everyday until I fell sick last week. I am still not fully recovered yet but after getting a lot of time off, I realise I miss my hobbies. I only get like an ounce of leisure time each day because I work like two jobs with no off days. Honestly, that ounce of free time mainly stemmed from transit time. I went on a gaming galore during my medical leave and with the help of my husband, I finally managed to play the Torment levels of Diablo III! OMG! Achievement! Hahaha!
I am also kinda slowly getting back into the football fandom but at the moment, with no budget for quality viewing, I always have to wait until the team upload the match videos online. Haha! It is okay though. At this point, I guess I am turning into a proper pauper.
My Operations Manager asked me if I have set any new year resolutions on New Year’s eve and I was like, “I have no resolution”. Hahaha! It is true. I have barely have time for myself, what more think about things like that. My mind is so empty and simply tired out from working all of the time.
I guess this year is all about paying back. “IT IS PAYBACK TIME!”
I wish the mission is as cool as it sounds but alas, it is all about paying my dues and debts. Let’s see… I owe a lot of money and I owe a lot of fasting days from previous Ramadans. My mission this year is to get rid of all of those as quickly as possible and as much as possible. Ramadan is in about two months more or less. A little afraid I will not make it in time but I will be very grateful to have shaved off at least half of what I owe before the next Ramadan comes.
Oh! I have also signed up to be a Grabfood delivery agent on foot so that will be my third job. Alas, I started to feel ill after signing up and then wham bam I am so sick until now so I have not had a chance to earn from that job yet.
I also realised during my medical leave that I have neglected my personal well-being so much that my body pretty much died. Now I am having a whale of a time trying to revive it. My hair is bitching. It absolutely needs to be washed everyday to retain its smoothness. While it is difficult to manage, I am thankful I still have a head full of hair. Come to think of it, even my 40+ husband still has a head full of hair. For paupers, we are doing just fine in terms of our hair. LOL.
A lot of people feel that my situation is dire but look, everyone gets a different sort of challenge in their lives. Even Shakira is faced with a huge tax debt, which her now ex-husband played a part in and the reason for the dissolution of their marriage is his infidelity. The guy even got her to live next to his own mother and he had the audacity to cheat on her. What a jerk. I think her situation is worse than mine. Having to sort through her personal affairs while being in the public eye is nothing I would envy. I would not swap my position with her in life. I think being rich in life means differently to me now. It used to be about amassing wealth but now I feel richer than Shakira in terms of having less difficulties than her. However, that is my perspective. I do not think Shakira envies my position either and she seems to be happy with how she had dealt with her private affairs.
Right now, I just have to be extremely patient and continue to work hard. I do not believe that my struggles are for naught. I know there is Great Wisdom behind all of these but I am too short-sighted right now to see it. He is the Best of Planners so I can only do my best to plan and execute according to my abilities. The rest is up to Him.
Are you guys happy with where you are at in your life? If you are, enjoy every moment of it and make plans to continue that happiness. If you are not, look for ways to improve it. If there is a will, there is always a way, although that way may not be clear immediately.
On a different note, I am contemplating securing one off day for me every week. I will probably start in March. I just realised that I actually have a huge job that I completely paid no attention to. My house work! Good Lord. I think it is high time I start paying attention to the house as well.
Egads! So many things to do, so little time!
And Allah is Ar-Rahman, The Beneficent. – MM